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valentine day

2009-02-12T10:36:00.001-08:00

on the valentine day will be a group celebration with my ko-k mate... we will going to have a activity in penang...haiz....sad~~

also dunno why those malay people will choose the day going to do activity de... i think most of them is single... and dunno what is calling valentine day... so just do the activity on that day...

for me... sure a little bit disappointed because cannot be with my dear. even those i not going to penang, i also will celebrate alone in my hostel.... because dear is not around me...

even he not around me, but still feel that he always on beside me... really feel that i am a lucky person to have him as my dear.

no matter what happen..i will always be there for you..

i want you happy, i want you to be success, i want you to be who you are.... and everything i hope is you wil get fine....

even we cannot celebrate together on that time...

but for me...

every is valentine day for both of us~~

i love you~~my dear

2009-02-12T10:36:00.000-08:00

on the valentine day will be a group celebration with my ko-k mate... we will going to have a activity in penang...haiz....sad~~

my dream all in vain

2009-02-09T21:17:00.000-08:00

last Saturday my sis told me Airasia going to have a promotion go to Asia country... that was excited me...because air asia is going to have 0 fare to selected country... so can get travel to oversea by cheaper ticket.. beside that i like back pack travel a lot... so sure need waiting for the cheaper price...hehe

this time i planning go to ang kor wat...long time ago i already feel excited going to combodia, this time...air asia got 0 fare to there...sure i dun one miss the golden oppurtunity. the period i plan to going is during the malay new year...hari raya aidilfitri.

even i plan to travel, sure i will asking the person that feel importance for me company me go...but after asking....get to know that he din have the free time on that time. very disappointing. i know not he false at all, because the company will not allow him to take leave at that period... but just feeling like i lost the chance to be with him.

after that, i agree with my sister that i will join them to go ang kor wat. n they will help me booking all the ticket and settle everything to me. But i feeling like moody, because i really really feel like going to travel with my lovely dear...

but wat can i do?.....that is nothing can i do..or maybe i should reject my sister plan, n just stay in malaysia and go meet up dear.

early in the morning 7am i receive my sister msg...

" during the hari raya din have the 0 fare, and the ticket is expensive, so we will like to change the time to october or november... so did you free at that time?"

then wait i replay is

" sorry, in october i still have classes, and november i starting exam...so i din have any holiday...so nvm la...you all just go la."

everything suddenly all in vain.....

now i just going bck to normal...forget about that...continue my study...

the life is still need to carry on...

every will be ok for me...

Nothing is FOC~!!

2009-02-05T01:20:00.000-08:00

my uni have a machine water can give student refill the water, but the student need to pay to get the water... for me i think is very cheap because 500ml is only cos 10 sen only...

so i think is cheap and cannot be argue about that already...and it can effort by every student.

But what i saw in my uni junior...what they did is stealing the water, putting in 10 sen and they just keep on switch on n off the electric, so they can get the water as much as they want only for 10 sen..

at the time, i also line up waiting to refill my water, and i saw this stupid happen in uum.

The thing that make me more surprise is they din feel sorry or embarrass of the action what have they just did. and they keep on going with what they have done even alot pair of eyes keep watching on them...

shame on them ~~~

i just want to tell them that nothing is FOC~~~

this few day feeling like dear is unhappy... but just he dun want to show up infront of me~~ maybe he just dun want me to worry about him de.....

anyways just hope that he will be fine andways n i always wil take care of him... because he is the importance person to me...lol

love you~~

what can i do?

2009-01-16T20:11:00.000-08:00

yesterday night receive the call from some one importance to me...then the voice from the phone is just very down...i dunno what happen and i dunno why? i know he was down...

i saw the message that he send to me after we chatting....i dunno what should i reply to him...typing until half way...i get stuck with it...because i dunno how to write it...

before that...i was in doing my assignments, but after know that...i just cannot concentrate in what i am doing.... i keep moving around in my room... stated worried about him....my roomate keep asking me what happen to me? look like so worry... but i just keep say nothing...and try to dun show out too much to them...

and that time i mad with myself...asking why i am not beside him now? why now i am far from him....if i was beside him..i think the thing that i gonna to do is hug him tight tight...lol~~

untill now...i still worry about him....but what can i do?

i care him, i worry him, i want to be with him...i just want spend my time with him...all i want just be with him...

i will continue support him...cheer him up...doing the best that i can to make him happy again..

hoping he can recover soon~~ become the person that i know~~ because i love him so much....n miss die him

new year; new wish, new hope

2008-12-25T19:21:00.000-08:00

only left 5 day 2008 will become a history year to me...and all the profile of 2008 will be end up become a memories to me in my life~~

2008 is the year can say up site down to me...because something that i have archive my goal, some still in the process and some is failed~~ lol

nothing special much in 2008 for me... just facing 308 general election and BN lost 5 state power(but non of my business also), petrol increasing after that just slowly decreasing ( even i have a car, but in hometown, so din effect me at all), economic get worst because of USA (damn it~~ cannot spend more money) n Obama become USA president....haizzz

but for sure that one thing i'm glad is, meeting a guys that have love me, take care of me...and that is my dear~~~DL...shy~ no metter what happen , he always beside with me....i just think i am a lucky one can meet up with him....my life getting colourfull also because of him...lol

2009 is coming, i think it will be a challenging year for all of us...what ever it happen...just bring it on...i am ready for it~~

A new year sure have new wish n hope...so just as usual hopefully it can dream come true to me~~ wahaha~~`

1) my relationship getting stronger and more sweeter(lol)

2) my result can continue as the last sem...getting a good result

3) enjoying my life with someone i care

4) the world economic will getting better (then i got more money 2 spend...lol)

5) i think i need 2 learn to control my hot temper

6) every one that i know will become happy as always

opppsssssss...to much jor....2nite will going hong kong for convocation de~~ i think i will enjoy it...lol~~ see you guys in 2009~~ cheer...

3 week life in KL

2008-12-15T01:11:00.000-08:00

finish my 3rd semester by taking my last paper exam on 21th november, n for sure that i directly taking bus from university to kl... n that is one reason only that feel motivated and excited to KL n that is my lover...

actually this is my 1st time that staying in kl for so long...before that i only will spend one week in KL then will back to my hometown again. Actually this time went to KL actually also planning stay for one week only...but maybe the "god" give me more opportunity to accompany my lover in KL, because my hometown kelantan getting flood n it quiet serious....

my parents have call me stay for few more days and see the situation on that, because few of the trains have been cancel....and i get the opportunity to be with dear for more days..

beside that...9/12 is hari raya haji and also hari korban, so all the tickets that have been sold out from kl bck 2 kelantan.... and i "force" to stay in kl again~~ lol....ermmm...actually i also feel that dun one so fast going home...just because i will be sad.....

dear, just want to tell you that, i really happy that spending time with you, even we got bad time, but overall it was happy. i can't be happy in kl without you at beside on me~~~

yesterday i have to back to hometown already after spending time in kl for 3 more week, and 2day just reach kb. During the journey bck to kb... i cant sleep well, not because of the trains swing too heavy, just my brains all is my dear, the day that i spending with dear,...just miss it~~~

just want to say thank you for everything that you have gave 2 me.... thank you my lovely dear~~~ DAVID LEE...

muacksssssss

不可不看的人生10个经典领悟

2008-11-28T01:12:00.000-08:00

1、父子二人经过五星级饭店门口，看到一辆十分豪华的进口轿车。儿子不屑地对他的父亲说：「坐这种车的人，肚子里一定没有学问！」父亲则轻描淡写地回答：「说这种话的人，口袋里一定没有钱！」

（注：你对事情的看法，是不是也反映出你内心真正的态度？）

2、晚饭后，母亲和女儿一块儿洗碗盘，父亲和儿子在客厅看电视。突然，厨房里传来打破盘子的响声，然后一片沉寂。儿子望着他父亲，说道：「一定是妈妈打破的。」「你怎么知道？」「她没有骂人。」

（注：我们习惯以不同的标准来看人看己，以致往往是责人以严，待己以宽。）

3、有两个台湾观光团到日本伊豆半岛旅游，路况很坏，到处都是坑洞。其中一位导游连声抱歉，说路面简直像麻子一样。另一个导游却诗意盎然地对游客说：诸位先生女士，我们现在走的这条道路，正是赫赫有名的伊豆迷人酒窝大道。」

（注：虽是同样的情况，然而不同的意念，就会产生不同的态度。思想是何等奇妙的事，如何去想，决定权在你。）

4、同样是小学三年级的学生，在作文中说他们将来的志愿是当小丑。中国的老师斥之为：「胸无大志，孺子不可教也！」带外国的老师则会说：「愿你把欢笑带给全世界！」

（注：身为长辈的我们，不但容易要求多于鼓励，更狭窄的界定了成功的定义。）

5、在故宫博物院中，有一个太太不耐烦地对她先生说：「我说你为什么么走得这么慢。原来你老是停下来看这些东西。」

（注：有人只知道在人生的道路上狂奔，结果失去了观看两旁美丽花朵的机会。）

6、妻子正在厨房炒菜。丈夫在她旁边一直唠叨不停：慢些。小心！火太大了。赶快把鱼翻过来。快铲起来，油放太多了！把豆腐整平一下！「晓的」妻子脱口而出，「我懂得怎样炒菜。」「你当然懂，太太，」丈夫平静地答道：「我只是要让你知道，我在开车时，你在旁边喋喋不休，我的感觉如何。」

（注：学会体谅他人并不困难，只要你愿意认真地站在对方的角度和立场看问题。）

7、理由充分

一辆载满乘客的公共汽车沿着下坡路快速前进着，有一个人后面紧紧地追赶着这辆车子。一个乘客从车窗中伸出头来对追车子的人说：“老兄！算啦，你追不上的！”“我必须追上它，”这人气喘吁吁地说：“我是这辆车的司机！”

(注：有些人必须非常认真努力，因为不这样的话，後果就十分悲惨了！然而也正因为必须全力以赴，潜在的本能和不为人知的特质终将充份展现出来。)

8、原来如此

甲：「新搬来的邻居好可恶，昨天晚上三更半夜、夜深人静之时然跑来猛按我家的门铃。」

乙：「的确可恶！你有没有马上报警？」

甲：「没有。我当他们是疯子，继续吹我的小喇叭。」

（事出必有因，如果能先看到自己的不是，答案就会不一样在你面对冲突和争执时，先想一想是否心中有亏，或许很快就能释怀了。）

9、后生可畏

小男孩问爸爸：“是不是做父亲的总比做儿子的知道得多？” 爸爸回答：“当然啦！”

小男孩问：“电灯是谁发明的？” 爸爸：“是爱迪生。”

小男孩又问：“那爱迪生的爸爸怎么没有发明电灯？”

（很奇怪，喜欢倚老卖老的人，特别容易栽跟斗。权威往往只是一个经不起考验的空壳子，尤其在现今这个多元开放的时代。）

10、不必紧张

小明洗澡时不小心吞下一小块肥皂，他的妈妈慌慌张张地打电话向家庭医生求助。医生说：“我现在还有几个病人在，可能要半小时后才能赶过去。”

小明妈妈说：“在你来之前，我该做什么？”

医生说：“给小明喝一杯白开水，然后用力跳一跳，你就可以让小明用嘴巴吹泡泡消磨时间了。”

（take it easy，放轻松放轻松些，生活何必太紧张？事情既然已经发生了，何不坦然自在的面对。担心不如宽心，穷紧张不如穷开心。）

最近朋友给我看了这一篇文章，看完之后，真的有所感触，很好的一篇文章，就觉得应该放上来和他家一起分享。

人往往就是站在一个角度，一个点出发，所以看的东西都是狭窄的，为何人的心胸总是不能够放宽一点点，多了解一点点。。。许多的误会就是如此的产生~~

许多事情都在考验着我们的人生，许多的障碍都会一个接一个挡在人生的前面，阻止走向幸福的道路，但是你给予耐心多一点，关心多一点，了解多一点。。。相信在人生不管是亲情，友情，爱情甚至是待人处事方面。。。肯定能够逢凶化吉。。。。

这样感情才会长远的走下去~~

Melancholy

2008-11-06T18:58:00.000-08:00

My final exam for semester 3 started at 1//11....i hate for this semester final exam schedule...because 1th , 2nd and 3th i directly taking exam for 3 paper....it drive me crazy~~~ but luckily the question is more easier that i thought...and i managed to answer all the question...haha... but can i score A...that is another matter already~~

everyday i keep study like hell, and after the 3rd paper finish....i going back to hostel as fast as i can...n i directly jump into my comfort zone to sleep like a pig~~ and that day i sleep from 1pm until 8pm just woke up~~

next 3 paper will exam at 10th, 15th and the last paper will be 21th....exam non-stop kill me....but the paper and next separate almost 1 week...i also kill me~~~ in uni, really din have any entertainment that can help me relax my self...beside of going 2 sport center swimming...

this few day i just study until 2 in the morning....then wake up at 11am....direct go tabao for my food after that start doing note and studying...when get bored just play some game...n going to swimming at night....this be my life during the exam month~~~suck~~`

and it make me become melancholy~~~ i really dunno what can i do beside on doing those activity.....i feel like i am absent-minded..... plus the feeling that sound like going to sick but not really sick....just make me become more melancholy~~

izit i am stress my self on the study....just keep study and study...untill i became like that....?

maybe~~ but beside on that what can i do~~

the promise

2008-10-30T01:16:00.000-07:00

i came down kl during my study week, for sure that i dun want stay at the stupid jungle university hostel with nothing activity can i done....and second, for sure i wanna meet my my lovely dear~~

in the week that stay with my dear...it can say very happy with dear~~ even we not hang out all the time...because i still need do my revision for coming exam, but what i can i feel is dear is so treating me very good....i feel that dear is so sweet

i am born in April, so my horoscope will be Aries...and Aries personality will be hot temper...and that why i get the hot temper~~ in this few day i was in kl, sure have some argument with dear, but it get settle very quickly because dear always know how to care of me....he really really a nice guys...

i dunno it getting correct or wrong, sometime argument can improve the relationship between two people, but sometime it will destroy the relationship. but i do believe that my relationship will getting improve~~haha~~ because i know who i am n i know who my dear is~~

after this few day with dear, i think i am really really lucky to have him as my dear...i really dunno how 2 express the feeling to have him...just can say is nice~~

dear have told me something....i will keep it in mind...and that is the promise to you~~~

because i really love your...muacksssssss

记得我爱你~~

2008-10-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

跟你一起我想应该值得庆幸
保护是天生的力气
忘记提醒还有那些你教我的
昨天你给了我今天我照顾你

记得你不善言辞的给我许多鼓励
记得我总是发了不该发的牛脾气
我可以放弃一切也能不放弃
你都是最后原因

记得我看着你的背影偷偷说感激
记得你总是为了小小事情而担心
若有天你开始模糊了记忆
你只要记得记得我爱你.

还你爱你别到最后才觉可惜
付出不是天经地义
所以疼你直到你白发在飘逸
今天我要珍惜明天还要继续
就算全都忘记记得我多爱你

这是我最近喜欢的一首歌曲，这是本地创作，有astro新秀冠军曾国辉的作品，曲子还蛮轻松的，值得一听，而出了好听之外，当然我更是喜欢当中的歌词，觉得非常的有意思。。。哈哈~~ 因此最近都还是一直重复的聆听这首歌曲~~

歌词写得真得很好，写出了我的心情。。。当中的歌词就有一句 “记得你不善言辞的给我许多鼓励记得我总是发了不该发的牛脾气” 根本就是我的写照。。。因为我的“他”不管是在任何的时候，都一直的给我鼓励，而我更是老是发牛脾气在他的面前~~真的不知所错。。。

每次都和自己说，不能够有如此的性格，不能如此的任性，但是就是控制不了我自己的脾气，令到我的"他” 很不开心，感觉好惭愧~~

但是无论以后的道路有多辛苦，都希望能够和你一起走下去。。。就如歌词第一句所写的 “跟你一起，我想值得庆幸” 我真的真的会珍惜这一段感情。。。我也不想如此得来不易的感情就如此的完蛋。。。

真心和你说一声~~我爱你~！！

dear, i know that a lot of sentence maybe u will not get understand, lol, but just want to tell u that...u are my dear, my lovely dear ~~

even we have a lot of challenging that we need to face, but i promise you that i will face it with you until the end~~

no matter what happen, happiness or sadness, i will sharing with you~~~ just because you are my dear~~i really dun want to lost a good lover like you~~`

remember...i love you~~

muackssssssss

2008-10-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

this few day dunno how to express my feeling, i really get happy but on the other hand i also easier get moody.... i also dunno why this will happen on me...maybe my hormone is not in stable....or guys "dai yi ma " come~~lol

i dunno how to express about my feeling on this few day....i dunno why i really easily get tired even i din do anything...haiz...

my hp sim card also get in problem...i have sign up for post past last 2 month ago...i tough i going to be ok...yesterday i trying to call friend..but connecting is fail...and then i using my friend hp call to maxis center and try to ask...

the result that i get is...your detail is not in maxis record....what the F~~ they call me try using back my prepaid sim card...lucky i din throw my old sim card...if not sure i going 2 sue that stupid maxis center~~

i really feel sorry to dear that because this few day of my moody attitude.. dear always understand me de....thank~~

dear will cheer me up when i in down...when i saw the msg dear send to me... i really happy~~~ it help me recover alot...really~~

no matter what he did...he will always think of me 1st....i really feel that i am very lucky that have you as a dear~~~~~~~my lovely dear~~~

love you....muackssssssssssssssss

Thank for everything~!!

2008-10-12T02:15:00.000-07:00

About people saying that my EQ need improvement getting a lot of response from my friend….i am so happy that they giving a lot of motivation to me and cheer me up…

So glad that so many people on my back and giving a lot of support to me….and one of my friend said: no matter wat people say u got to take the good with the bad. Smile with the sad and remember what u learns. Learn to forgive but never forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change, thing go wrong, just remember, life goes on~~~~

The messages do motivate me a lot~~thank for supporting by your guys ~~

Beside that, still has one people that I need to thank , and that person is my lovely dear~~~

Dear, just want to say that, u always understands me, take care of me, always cheer me up when I facing problem~~~~n more n more thing that u have done to me~~~

You just din complain to me at all…and still treat me so good~~~

No matter what happen, you always my lovely dear~~

Miss n love you~~~muacksssssss.

am i EQ not high enough?

2008-10-09T02:24:00.000-07:00

2day some one told me that i need to improve my EQ...because some time i easyly get angry by people...

yup i admit that i have a bad temperament......but if not i really get mad of one thing....i will not so easily get angry....why those people will pin point people but will not look at their own....are they good enough to say people...hmmm...i dun think so.... because wat u promise to done the job....in the end i need to settle all those thing to you....

if i EQ not really high....for sure....i will not be so successful in the way that i have been done....i know what i want...i know what is good to me....i will control my self untill that i really cannot Enduring then i will lost my control my scolding people....but in the end of the day....u say i need to improve my EQ? hmmm...maybe i have to.......but for sure u need to improve double from me~~

just abaiakan what have happen...hehe....because i starting my "news life".....because i really feeling happy that the way i have now~~ i happy that have some one on me~~ even far from me....but i happy......... because i feel close to me~~hehe~~~

no metter what have happen....and where u are...i love u~~~~~~~~ this is my promise to you~~

thank for waiting....thank for the Contains ,thank for hearing me keep mumbling to you~~~hehe~~

i miss u dear..really want to meet u as soon as i can~~~~~~~~ this is the 1st time write about it to u....and just for u~~~~~~~~~~~

muackssssssssssss

Value VS Ranking.....Love~~

2008-10-04T00:20:00.000-07:00

my short break holiday get finish and 2molo morning i need to attend classes...every thing will back to normal again...continue studying, doing assignment and exam....the holiday just pass it so fast, it coming to the end that i also din notice....

2day wake up by parent and going out breakfast with family then company mum to market buying something de.....then back to house continue on9 because i know that after i back to uni...i din have much time to on9 and relaxing......

beside that, i plan to cutting my hair...because it look like getting long already...and i dunno why...i dislike to let my hair long...because it look like i am very old and ugly...lol~~ feel getting fresh and more younger with the short hair....

my new hair....look more fresh izit~~haha

when i on9...have a friends asking me a question:

A: Do you care about people ranking about you in them heart?

me: nop...wat for? if the friend think that i am good to him is enough...wat for need to know wether is no 1 or not?

A: but don't you think that is a value that your best friend ranking u in them heart?

me: the value of friend cannot be judge by the ranking, the most important thing is the way u treat your friend how......and this is just of the real value of friends.

A: but ranking is can prove that how important your in a person heart..

me: to prove that i am important or not...i dun think that is necessary need to rank by people, it show from the action...

in the end of the conversation.....my friends just say that it still importance of the ranking ...but for me...i dun think we need that....because i just will take care who ever is importance for me~~i no need to put rank them from 1st place to last......because i really care of friends...

and when i was in on9 i also saw a passage that it was so meaningful...just like it~~~

"In the dream lover to witness a miracle, then the meaning of life any more doubt that the sun is the son of the desire to light near the moon goddess.

Unfortunately, ah! Nature's magic during the day and night, only the turn of the relentless, and the best that the sweet kiss goodbye.

I am confused, I do not know how I should do.

I just want to love you, but this will only give you more problems, and you hate.

Let me sing and broken, broken. The heart-rending, all the pieces.

If we are under I can see, I only hope you can give me a little more,

A little more love, do not hurt me

I love you. "

so touching ~~sob sob~~

holiday..waterfall... relaxing~~~

2008-10-03T00:33:00.000-07:00

b4 go sown enjoy~~sure need take pic for memory~~kaka

this is the view of the waterfall~~it was so nic...and amzing~~i love it

our geng start plying n enjoy the water...it cool man~~the water very cool...shake like hell..lol

after almost one week back to kb....my holiday can say it was so bored...but it getting a little bit fun for me after going waterfall with friend yesterday~~

back to home town so many days....2day really can say that is the most relaxing day 2 me....when we reach the waterfall and start playing...i really can relax my self and enjoying to play with friend...din have a lot of tension or problem...just enjoy and playyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~

the waterfall that we went to is latar tembakar, is located at jertih terengganu, is border between kelantan and terengganu....if u drive from kota bharu, it need take about 2 n half hour to reach the waterfall....

latar tembakar waterfall have 6 level.....1-4 is at the foot of moutain....the water is not very deep...the view also not really nice....5-7 is need to climb up to the middle of mouantain....is need almost 20 minit to reach level 5 and level 5 is the most nicest of the waterfall.... for sure that very little will be there because it need climb moutain and is high...for those who bring family sure will company their family...so crowded place will be at level 1 to level 4.....

this time....sure we dun one share with people and it not fun if have many people in the water...so we climb up to the level 5 and enjoy our self at there....haha ~~

after climb up the moutain about 20 minit....when we reach there....it was so nice...and it was amazing for me....really nice.... the most thing is...no body at there...only our geng~~~~~~~~ wahaha~~~ we just can do wat ever we like...kaka~~~so syokkkkkk~~

after getting tired swim and play, we eating nasi kari laut ayam as our lunchhhhh~~haha ~~after that we continue play untill 3 something and just packing and back home...

enjoying our dissert....watermallon~~~~ lol

on the way back to our town, the traffic is jam like hell....really tulan...but luckyly i am not the person who responsible to driving...so i can sleep like a pig~~~lol~~ really tired men~~

when i reach home...already 7.30 and directly go out dinner with family......and 9 something just back to home~~~and starting to rest~~~~

really enjoy the trip that organized by my friend.....i really have a good time at there~~~ so nice and wonderfull day for me~~~~

a bored holiday

2008-09-30T02:13:00.000-07:00

always waiting for the holiday because it was just exciting and can relax myself....but not for this time....

getting back from uni...really want to relax myself and enjoy my holiday after get busy and tired with my moonfest project and assignment.....but i get sick~~wat the fxxK~~

but this also ok...after this few day stay at home...really nothing to do....just watch drama and on9 only...nothing already.....maybe i'.m in sick...so din join friend for yam cha....and maybe it make untill my holiday so bored.........

after thinking, i think i still cannot relax and enjoy my holiday....i dunno why have this stupid feeling...it still like a lot of tention on me~~~i very worry of this and that...but in the end..i also dunno i worry about wat.....

i just feel that i lost my self.......

this few day i think i am bad temperament........i really get med easyly.....i am so so sorry~~~

i really dunno wat i am doing in my holiday~~ do every thing also no mood....want study but start reading...direct sleepy~~~ want go out...but feel lazy....

hate the holiday like this~~~ hope the following day of my holiday will get special and really get my self relax...b4 my study continue and wil facing my final exam soon~~

i'm sick~~

2008-09-28T02:00:00.000-07:00

i thought that after finish busy for one whole week with my moonfest project...i can go back to my hometown relax my self.....but the worse thing that i back to home...i get sick~~~~

after back to hometown...still feeling ok....and go to eat thai food with friend....manatau...second day wake up...get sick jor......sick like hell......wanna vomit de~~

really need some one beside on me n take care of me...just feel lonely.....i hope some one is beside me...n give me 2 hug~~~

2day when to see dr already.....and feeling better...but still in blur blur situation...haha~~ walking also like i am in flying~~kaka

eating the medicion.... just not a good feeling.....want to go out lepak also din have the mood~~~ this sick spoil my holiday mood~~~suckkkkkkkkk~~

sitting at home and watch hong kong drama....nothing can do alraedy....sien~~

really feel lonely.......

the feeling of this few week

2008-09-27T01:27:00.000-07:00

Long time din write down my feeling on the blog....some one just keep asking me that when going to update the blog again.... and i just told him that dunno why i loose the feeling of going to write down what i feel...even i have the feeling to update the blog...but my brain is just like empty...dunno what should i post up on the blog......

i think i started busy at 14th of september untill 22nd. i keep busy with my mooncakes festival project that i have join....every day every night keep on meeting...n meeting .....untill 3-4am early in the morning......

then bck 2 my room already 5 something , continue sleeping untill 9 or 10 something have 2 wake up n prepare myself to class....and all this rotaine continue almost one week already.....

at the week that i get busy...i starting to get moody, unhappy....i know i have to done all job.... but wat the stupid pengarah and pemantau.....just last minit and tell u this u need to do...that u need to repair....wat the fuckkkkkkkkkk~~

they just know how to order our ketua to work....but they even din think about how many time we have and how many thing we still need to settle......wat kind of the leader they are....

this is the 1st time that i join the project and make me feel unhappy.....b4 that even i join a project ...even i am so busy and tired...but i can feel the happyness... but i am honest to tell not this time~~~ because my biro pemantau is suckkkkkkkkk~~~ never try 2 solve problem just know how to create problem...in the end need me to help her to cover his back site.....

and the worse thing is...i still need to smile infrant of her...even i really wanna slap her~~ if she really not a girl...i slap die her already....lol

some more i still need to settle my assignment.....my group have done wrong...and luckyly the lectural give us a chance to re-do again....but the time that we have is just one n the half day....30 pages of the assignment.....wat the helll.,... but wat can we do....we just need to finish it...bcs all of tis is exam mark...........

i am so so so....sorry to one person that need to hear me mumbling and make him feel sad to me........bcs i really really unhappy in that time..........just i dun want to say i out........ but anyways thank to him always cool me down....thank alot....special men~~

now is my holiday.......i bck to hometown again.....and it time to relax my self.....do the thing that i like to do.....eat the food that i like to eat...........dun 1 to thing so much........ just be the real of my self..........

i just keep missing...missing...n missing~~~~muackssssssssssss

Mr.Beng

2008-08-26T20:42:00.000-07:00

after finish my mid sem break....i getting to start busy with my uni thing...my project, assignment mid sem exam...walau~~~faint~~~~~~

but...even i'm busy with all those this thing....but i'm still ok with that....the thing that i really cannot tahan is....that stupid ah beng just like a mosquitoes that will not die....keep mumbling beside me...and always telling me the nonsense thing...what the stupid fucking ppl.... so sorry that i am so rude....i really make me tulan him only....

sometime...he keep on complaining everything to us....but wat he does to us is just annoying... beside that....he always want to compete with every one...he just want to win every single of us...especially is me... even assignment...he keep asking me how 2 do....but the fact is he already know how 2 do it...n he still will like 2 listen to people idea....n keep stealing your idea.... sien...

how come i have this stupid cousemate....sien... but wat ever he does...i just pretend dunno everything.....because lazy to entertain him..... wat ever he do...do u think i care~~~

oklah...have exam de....if really want 2 talk...untill dunno when will finish......aikssss

choices n decision

2008-08-22T21:34:00.002-07:00

i believe that in our life, a lot of decision that we need to make....whether we want to face it or not.... it also will happen directly or even indirectly .....

some time we got the power to choose n make a decision for our self....but do u ever thing that the power is a good or bad thing? 4 me....i also dunno the answer....bcs it can be gd n it also can be bad...

some people will say when u have a lot choices to choose..then that mean is a good thing....because the final decision is in your hand....

but some people also say that....choices is not a good thing...because it just will make u more difficult and will thing a lot of thing....sigh~~

no matter what the problem we facing in our life....we have the choices...it will appear two way to us n give us a chance to make a decision...either is plan A or plan B.... maybe still have another solution....but this is the basic of the way that can help us do the decision....

decision....a thing that we always have to facing......some time....the decision that we have make will make me happy... but some time the decision that we make will make us regret.... so when we doing one decision so we really have 2 think twist of that...if not...we really will easily get regret of the decision that we have made by our self

now i lazy to think of this stupid thing...i just want 2 enjoy my life.... untill when i just can make a final decision...

i dunno....

so fake!

2008-08-07T00:00:00.000-07:00

different ppl have their own personilty.....n we cannot judge by any perseptive....but dunno why alot of people need to do the comparerision n acting infrant of ppl....why just some of people cannot become them self.....

this sem...i have alot of project that i have inchange.....but the thing that make me feel tulan is wat the stupid ah beng creat alot problem to us .......n that stupid ah beng just ignore the problem...n untill the the problem getting serious ....he just throw the problem n need us to help him 2 slove it.....

but wat i getting mad is.....that fellow still acting like no problem and still can smile like nothing happen to me.....walau!!!! so fake....how come got people in this world can have this kind of people....

i think i need to giving the "the best fake actorrrrrrrr" in uum to that stupid ah beng........ why this people cannot become the real of them....why they need to pretent all the time....shitttttttttt!!!

i am not saying that i am a perfect person...but at least i just became who am i....i dunno how 2 hide for my personality........but for sure...this is real of my.........not like another people.....really want to vomit blood.....

very fakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! tulan.....but nvm...this kind of ppl just leave me awayssssssss......

i am who i am...no need to teach me how to be a better person.......bcs i am already.....

boycott? so serious man~~

2008-08-04T07:37:00.000-07:00

Boycott is the word that will be very serious.....if some one that have done the thing that make me angry until one level...i think i will boycott to that stupid fellow~~

some people have ask me this question about boycott some one? am i really going to boycott? hmm....to honest with you all guys....i din boycott that fellow at all..... i am not that bad person k~~~

for me...it just very simple....who care me... treat me good...sure i will pay back....but when i trying to treat u good...but some one has just try to ignore it...then wat for i will continue doing that.... i think this is normal n happening in the daily life...so i tried 2 used to it....

maybe i am a very sensitive person...so if have any thing that had "hurt"....i am so sorry... but just want 2 say.....i just want 2 be real on me.... because i am who i am.....

my lappy get problem de....take 2 service center service...so now aday only can on9 using computer at the computer lab..........suck~~

i want my lappy back.....n luckyly my lappy still have warentty...so no need 2 pay...wakakaaa

n i miss dear so much...know him really bz de....but i understand...love u~~

muackssssssss

i going become zombie~~

2008-07-30T20:35:00.000-07:00

now a day i really busy with my thing in the uni, my assignment is the most thing that make me busy like hell~~ since last week i almost every day night burning oil to rushing my assignment... not i am lazy.... but i am to hardworking...lol~~~ this semester and untill i have 11 assignment need to be done~~~wat the.....

untill now...i already done 3 assignment...wakaka~~~ i am damn happy for that...but on the same time...i am not enough of sleep.... going 2 become a zombie already...kaka~~

yesterday after finishing meeting about the assignment, then we decided go 2 changlun to eat steamboat~~kaka...i need to relaxing my self....

this week just nothing happen on me...just on my room n doing the stupid assignment~~~ now just waiting my sembreak~~~ then i can go relax awile~~:p

dear already know that after the couse, he will working in seremban~~~ SEREMBAN!!! haiz... but nvm la....i think kl also near with seremban de....so is ok la~~~

wat ever places dear going to work ....i also will support de la...hehe muacksssssssss~~~

my sister convo in kl

2008-07-27T23:14:00.000-07:00

just coming back 2 my lovely uni after attend my sister convocation in UCSI KL. So glad that seeing my sister get graduated from getting degree .....n how about me? hmmm....still have 2 wait more 2 year just will be my turn.sign...so just have 2 slow slow wait lo....

i only have one sister...so we just be closed enough since we still a child...untill now...still `the same...we always have been sharing all the thing that we have...n we have no secret to each other....just except that i am SGL....she dunno only...LOLLLL~~

me + sis + mum

beside attending sister convocation....then sure another thing is meet up with SGL that i know well~~lol....

first time meet up with Desmond....omg~~he getting fat then the pic...kaka...the pic is not bad...manatau...bcs of holiday getting fatter de~~~ n one thing cannot tahan with he long hair... look like lala~~lol.... so advise from me....go keep fit n cut your hair~~~ wakaka~~~ hopefully next time meet up with u will be more leng~~:p

beside that...loudau and david also company me during me in kl....haha~~~both of them really good 2 me de~~go wingz yam cha, go old town makan...kaka~~ this time i going 2 kl meet up with them only de....n they just company all the time~~ really thank alot~~~:p

not like that sui mikey~~~call him manatau..he off hp....then sleep like a pig~~~sien~~~

n some one is going 2 become LCLY~~~ but just abaikan....i need 2 learn 2 be used to...

when i was in kl....my dear also have to attend a couses in kl at sepang.....even we are near but he is far from me...haiz...=<

miss him alot de....but we cannot meet up with each other...we din have a chance.....but i understand for that dear just have a couse n start working...so have 2 pay more attention on work de.....asal dear also miss n love me...in he heart have me...then i am getting sweeter de~~:p

anyway...i just waiting the opportunity to meet up with my lovely dr rcks de~~~muacksssssss

feel alone

2008-07-16T23:49:00.000-07:00

bck 2 uni already almost 2 week...n had been stay in the jungle and no activities that can done by me...sien~~

everyday my time table is full of classes...so my life sure will be "eat" book , assignment, meeting... walau~~none stop d program.. it a busy sem for me~~

2day attend a SDG clases...that lectural was none stop asking us a stupid question...untill he also cannot answer it....char dao~~~ so stupid de lecture's....

even i busy with all thing...but i still feel alone~~ bcs dear not beside on me....i want see dear badly~~~

dunno start from when dear become my moral supporter....and every timi doing my thing...sure i will think about dear....go activity, eating, bathing, dreaming.....all is about dear~~~

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrhhhh.......hate the feeling of miss-ing some one that i love~~~

but what can i do?!...hmmm....only keep miss-ing of dear~~~lol.... really hopefully i can meet up with dear soon... because miss-ing some one is drive me crazy....

n this feel week i feel like i am not my self.....n easyly get testiness.... so i really sorry 2 dear~~ bcs i lost control of my self~~~ but i will try 2 faced it myself....bcs i dun want my dear worry about me de~~~

anyway~~~ just want 2 tell dear that....thank 4 everything..... miss n love u~~~ muackssss

Lost in the “jungle”~~

2008-07-15T20:38:00.000-07:00

2day is kedah sultan ascend the throng for 50 year…so kedah get a public holiday n that way 2day no need 2 attend any classes….

But ….I still get busy….i need 2 done for my assignment…until now I already get 8 assignment…..and it will be more time by time….n yesterday I rushing until 3 something just sleep…..n 2day just wake up by 12 something….lol~~~

When I wake up….I feel that I am still in a blur blur situation…..I really dun no what am I doing for the day when I wake up…just like loosing my spirit…..haiz

At the room.. I looking to my computer then want to start doing my assignment again…but I dunno where I need 2 be start again….no mood to done it everything…

Until 4 something…my friend asking me joining them 2 learn 2 play golf…..haha…I never try it before…n it sound intresting to me….so I go 2 join them for playing the golf for my 1^st time…..my friend say I learn it very quickly….n I am proud of my self….lol… sorry…me get muka tembak already…kaka

the leng zai pose during swing the golf stick

this is my coach~~lol

After bck from sport…I back 2 my room…I feel like I getting lost again….i feel like no direction…..n on9 awile finding journal n start doing my assignment again….

Now …I really really want dear can at beside on me….I want hug dear~~ Dear always give a feeling to me that can make me become claim cool collected n I really feel the warm from dear~~~

Miss u~~~

busy, tired , stress

2008-07-09T23:03:00.000-07:00

after back to uni....i am super deeper busy with m life....alot thing that i need be done and settle~~ my schedule is very fully...busy with my study , my assignment , my activities.....every day is the same~~~

this semester , my time table is totally different with them....their class always is early in the morning ...n my class is more late then them....then it become a phenomena like i was sleeping they go 2 class....when i bck from class then they still in the class....some more i have 3 day have night class.....then when i bck 2 room...i just saw my roommate for that time...n not more then half an hour..we getting 2 sleep again~~my roommate saying that the room is become like a hotel...me only bck 2 room only for sleep....

i really feel embarrassed to my roommate because i was 2 busy with everything~~sigh...even my roommate invited me 2 swimming...i have no time even i really feel want 2 relax my self.....

meeting already become a part of my life....a lot of meeting i need to be attend....n the meeting always until very late.... some time meeting until midnight~~it make me very tired tired~~~ n a lot of assignment is already 2 be done~~~walau~~~ it damn busy u know~~~ but when i saw the message from dear...is just like a magic...i am direct feel everything is gone be alright for me....

when assignment come, alot meeting~~plus this semester...i become president of my ko-k, the project manger of one project....it make me feel stress de....but for sure i know how 2 plan my time...i am good in managing my time...lol~~~

after settle down something...2day only i have the time to on9...n updating my blog....n haruko is so strain about my blog...lol~~~will keep asking me haven update my blog....kaka...

in busy.....feel tired n getting stress~~~~~~~~but i miss dear~~

New sem start~~(7/7)

2008-07-09T22:54:00.000-07:00

Uni new sem started again….me back 2 my “big” student life…. A lot of assignment needs to be done….arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggg~~ but I have to face it….

Because me busy in the uni re-open and a lot thing that I need to be settle so until now just update my blog….haha…(sorry 4 those who was vexation about my news~~ make u wait so long…lol…>.<..so ss)

This few day, just a normal class day…n attend the class n start learning news thing….this is my 2^nd year in uni….the time is pass by so fast n now I become senior already….lol~~~I meet a lot of my junior….haha~~sound like old jor~~haiz…sigh~~

Beside of my class…I have few project in my hand need to be done in this sem…so I think it will be a busy but wonderfull sem for me….but for sure…I will not give up my class or exam…because I promise 2 my self…this sem I will beat that “ah beng”…n take back my sijil dekan again~~~lol

Back to uni…I din have much time to on9 …..haiz…so miss msn n mirc….wanted 2 chat with loudau, david, haruko, desmond…..miss them….:p for sure some guys in mirc like martin n ect…also miss them..bcs they are so 3 8~~~lol

N I heard that loudau n desmond very moody about the relationship thing between them with the person they like~~haiz….me so far from them…so also dun no how 2 help them… but hopefully they will get true all of this thing….n will be fine for them…hehe~~

But….4 sure…n the most importantthing that~~~I miss my dear so much~~~

One week already din meet dear…so miss him…now dear still in hometown teaching and just waiting the government to send him to some place service….

Now aday….I just msg or call dear for release my miss to dear~~~ hope everything just will get fine from him~~~

Opppppppppssssssssss…..better dun write 2 much de….wait some ppl will say me try 2 show off again~~so better be low profile~~lol~~

Oklah….it time 2 me be pig again….i will update my blog time by time~~ so just take pains ya~~~:p

I think I am too sensitive

2008-07-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

After finish paktor with dear….i back 2 house n as usual I on9 awhile b4 go 2 be pig~~ then suddenly some one telling me that david is hanker some one~~ my reaction is very big~~because I din heard about that…n he din telling it at all~~

N this morning…I asked david whether is true or not….n he saying yes~~ n I feel like moody….i am not jealous or wat….but he is my bro…I telling he all my thing then why he keeping it as a secret …..it make me feel like ignored~~~ but david is my gor

And the same thing happen on haruko….still the same~~he have news target…but never tell me…even share with me….he get my history…very well~~ but I din have change 2 know haruko~~ but haruko still my buddy~~

But after thinking all day long….i think I just too sensitive…..why I want to know about people privacy? Am I too 3 8?~~ I think so~~~ so just abaikan~~~ no need to extravagant hopes to much….because every body want the space for them self…..n I am too~~ so I admit that I am just too sensitive ~~

Leave it alone ~~~I dun want 2 think 2 much…because it just will make me feel bad and moody~~~

I need 2 apologize to both of them~~~ maybe the way that I speak 2 then is rude~~ I am so sorry….because I am think too much~~

This story become my last blog b4 I going bck 2 uni~~~ news semester is reopen again~~ n it going 2 be my second year in uni~~ hope it will be a news start from me~~~ everything will become ok~~~

Haha~~ jungle uni~~ I coming again~~

News sem~ester, news hopes, news dream…..but my dear is never change~~ is the same~~lol~~~

Unbelievable Experience~~!! (30/6)

2008-07-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

2day I back 2 my lovely school chung hwa again~~I going 2 meet my ‘kai ma” (lovely teacher)…I buying her favorites food—kaya puffs to her~~ mantau….she have class…so just waiting her finish the class….but in the end I din meet up with teacher… because after school she direct back already…pengsan~~ wasting my time~~ but see dear at there…lol(oppppppppssssssssss, cannot call dear de…wait that sui mikey n haruko suan me again~~~) >.<”

After that…having lunch with dear….n lepak lepak awile…then have 2 back 2 office and get my job done~~

2night will having dinner with dear again~~ haha…so happy ~~ dear call me to think about where is the place going 2 eat again….haiz….make me head big again~~

8pm something…dear is coming ….n we going 2 have dinner….just go a small restaurant to have our dinner…hehe

Finish dinner…want going 2 paktor….manatau….we found out that our car tyre pancit de~~~~Wat the XXX…..

Both of us need 2 change tyre by ouself~~~dear asking have changing tyre b4…then I answer no~~lol~~ because I din face that type of situation b4….kaka~~~ then we just take out the extra tyre from carriage n tool n start changing tyre~~~

Wow~~it my 1st time changing tyre~~haha~~~it was damn tired….but it was a unforgettable experience for me~~~~haha….plus doing this thing with dear~~lol~~

The place was damn dark….then we just doing it quickly~~ n I get sweat ….n dear also look like tired….but the process is so funny n we are paktoring during changing tyre…lol

Even we din go anyplace that sound romantic….but 4 me….it really really an unforgettable experince~~~it better then other~~

But~~hope that will not happened it again de~~lol~~~:p

wonderful day 4 me~~

2008-06-27T19:54:00.000-07:00

2nite going dinner with dear...but started from yesterday...i have no idea that where should i bring dear having dinner 2gether.....bcs u know la..both of us really always have no idea with the food de...haha~~~

dear just call me to decide the place n the food....make me head big only~~sigh~~

b4 having dinner with dear...me need 2 go donate my blood....this is my 10 time donate it...so din have any feeling ....but i still proud of my self~~~hehe n u know wat..the nurse tell me that they need alot of A type blood.....n my blood is AAAAAA positive....lol....that make me feel more excited bcs i can really help the patient.....

after finish donate blood...i am rushing bck 2 house....need 2 prepare my self ma...haha :p 6.40pm dear msg me that...need 2 fetch mum 2 go dinner funtion...so will be late...around 7.40 just will reach my home~~

then i just waiting lo...hehe...around 7.30 something ....dear reach my home....then jumped up dear car..n going 2 take dinner...i planned 2 take chicken chop with dear....at one restaurant that quite famous in my hometown, but when we reached there...full of ppl...

then we decided 2 take dinner at the new open restaurant also having chicken chop...but...the chicken chop is just so so~~lol...n the drink is not fresh at all~~sigh~~ but nvm...have dear beside me...then i will be happy de...

after having dinner....dear bring me go 2 jeti kastam see river...lol...we paktoring at there...haha ~~watch 2 the sky...can see alot of star...it was so nice 2 having dear......i feel so so happy~~~ because i have dear~~~i think i was a lucky guys 2 have dear with me~~

when i saw dear cap~~~is the same one dear buy 4 me....wahahhaaaa~~~ it was a 1st present that dear gave me... is a couple present........lol~~~

after that...dear know i am in tired.....then about 10pm sending me home~~~n around 10.20pm dear reach home~~

just want 2 tell dear that I LOVE U~~~~muackssssssssssss

am i very cool?

2008-06-26T19:18:00.000-07:00

as usual back2 office work as a reporter...then msg my dear for asking how about the teeth because dear have appointment with the dentist....

manatau...dear msg me back saying that faced an exodontia....now din have a front teeth de... i am so shock and start asking dear alot question....and dear just say he still in pain and no mood to eat ....the most think dear saying that become more uglies without the front teeth. and i am just worry about dear...keep cooling him down....then we decided that having lunch 2gether after finish teaching~~that why 2day have 2 wait untill 2pm just can eat lunch...hehe...but nvm... can meet dear wor~~ so hungry awile also nvm...

when i meet dear....and call dear show me "uglies" face without teeth....and in that time...i just realise that dear fool me.....dear only fill a tooth....and in that time...i just release my worries....

after having a lunch....both of us still have work 2 be done....so no time paktoring...lol~~ me need 2 take news fron dato ng yenyen...n dear need bck 2 school giving tuition 2 student....

at nite....dear just msg come n ask me eat dinner already or not....at that time...i already having my dinner n just watching news....and dear just want 2 have dinner with family....that time raining heavly.....sigh~~~

at that time...dear ask me why 2day during the lunch time look very cool....then i really din realise that i am very cool wor~~~lol....then i tell dear that even my face look cool but my heart is always getting burn~~~:p i think that time we r i public and just try 2 be low as we can....u know la....dear now teaching in school,....at that time...also alot of dear student pass by.....hehe

some time i look very cool~~~lol...is that true~~i also dunno...:p

2nite dear will having dinner with me.......but dear call me to choose a location.....dear always throw this thing 2 me to decided....sien~~lol.... me now become big head de...because i also have no idea where should we have dinner 2gether~~~

hmm...let see how la~~:p

welcome bck dear~~

2008-06-24T19:41:00.000-07:00

after attend a camped that has organized by ymm and nanju...i was just very tired...and this few day i lost my mood to writ down feeling...haha~~

dear has came back 2 Malaysia after one day i back from camped....i was just excited and really wanna meet dear when dear walk out from the airport...but i cannot to do that...because dear parents is beside....but i am glad that dear finally went back to Malaysia and lovely hometown...haha~~

when i saw dear...i was just so happy...and dunno how to describe the feeling....i really wanna hug him tight tight in that time...because dear when to china for one week already....damn miss dear~~ lol~~~~

u know what...dear have brought something to me~~~wakaka~~~ even the present is not special... but when dear gave me~~~it was just so sweet~~~:p but he gave me present by not saying nice word de....just give me like that...because dear is a passive person...always dunno express the feeling by word....so it kind of very funny 2 saw dear like that~~~lol

this few day just very tired....but i feel happy...because i can see dear...look at he botak hear~~lol hug hug him~~~shy shy~~oppppppppssssssss sorry....too over already~~~ just skip it...haha

this morning dear sms saying that will have a appointment with dentist....i think dear sakit gigi~~lol...but now dear teaching in school...so cannot disturb....have 2 wait n see lo~~~

only 6 day leave that i have to back to uni already.....so i will try 2 spend more time with dear...because after this, we dunno have to wait untill when just can meet up again~~~sigh~~

ehhhhhhh...cannt be sad de...must be happy 2 face it~~hehe...

oklah...have 2 go out take news de~~sien~~

露营的点点滴滴~~

2008-06-21T20:48:00.000-07:00

你的心情总在飞什么事都想去追
想抓住一点安慰你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁而孤单的滋味, 谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

你的心情总在飞, 什么事都想去追
想抓住一点安慰, 你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑但是天总会黑,人总要离别,
谁也不能永远陪谁而孤单的滋味, 谁都要面对,
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪你的快乐伤悲,只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪你的快乐伤悲, 只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回你的快乐伤悲,只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回让我再陪你走一回~~

这首歌曲突然之间令我有所感触，因为我们在露营中，就有人播放了这首歌曲，并且成为团康的游戏，就这样我对“他”的思念增加了~~

因为当我孤单的时候，就会想起“他”。。。

在这三天两夜的露营同时。。。一直都在想念着“他”。。不知“他”在中国好吗~

虽然如此，其实在露营当中我也十分的享受和开心，因为我们学习到了很多很多的东西。。。因为节目的安排让我受益良多~~~

在这次的露营当中，更是有许多的小妹妹们向我示好。。。搞到我不知所措。。。一些就说我好帅，一些就说我可爱。。。我听了，都觉得很不好意思~~~

甚至，在露营结束之后，都纷纷的和我拍照。。。更恐怖的是，有人用手机拍我个人照。。。一级想要和我来一个拥抱~~恐怖。。。现在的女子恐怖。。。

我只是一个再普通不过的一个男人~~~

好了。。。我真的好累好累~~不想再写了。。。晚安~~

法官和警察的效率。。。真的“太好了“~！！

2008-06-18T18:26:00.000-07:00

今天早上起来，就收到老板传来的一则短讯，表示有一项工作要我完成。。。那就是前往丹州法庭进行采访工作。。。是关于爆窃案的案件~~而涉及的人士更是拿督级的人物，当然的，拿督级的人物当然是原控。。。而他们更是控告一对父子偷爆保险箱~~

当然的，从早上9点多久已经出门前往法庭，而刚到法庭，这件案件也准备开审，但是被控的对方辩护律师更是因为以警方在案件开审的前两天才接获警方所送来的文件，因此没有足够的时间进行寻找资料的工作。。。所以要求延后开审。。。。而法官更是将此案件延后至26/7进行审案。

当然的，我们深为记者的工作不可能就只是这样的结束，我们还是必须等警方以及法官所作出的文件statement。。。我们才能够写新闻。。。。但是警方和法官都还没出来，所以我们只能够等~~

除了等。。。还是一个等。。。。。。

其实，该案件因为延后再审，所以不到5分钟就结束了审案，但是从9点30分，我们开始等到11。45分。。。警方和法官否还没有交出statement给我们。。。。真是火爆~~~

之后，我们都已经不耐烦了，根本就是没有耐心再继续的灯下去。。。所以都建议就根据手头上所拥有的资料作出新闻。。。。之后我们就离开了法庭。。。

没有一个人是继续的等待警方所提供的statement。。。。因为警方和法官的效率实在是太好了~~

如果这个国家面临很大危机的时候，我看这些认识肯定将会“壮烈牺牲”~~太悲哀了~~~

之后，就和同事一同到斋堂吃斋。。。。食物的感觉真的还不错呢~~真的还蛮好吃的~~哈哈~~

当然回到公司，当然就要开工了~~但是我还是不会忘了上网聊天~~哈哈~~ 不然的话，一直在工作真的很闷~~~

放工回家之后，等朋友载我一同去游泳~~到了那里。。。人并不多也并不少。。。还算能够顺利的游泳。。。但是游着游着。。。都没有帅哥的~~我不是特地去观察，但是在水里当然要东张西望的。。。

感觉好像是人家看我多一点~~~哈哈~~想太多了~~~

之后，就和朋友去喝茶了。。。聊着聊着。。。又问起了彼此的感情世界。。。而我们这班朋友当初在中学的时候。。。人家给我们起了一个绰号那就是F4。。。哈哈~~因为我们总是4个人混在一起，又是学长，然后出席某某的宴会。。。我们都会去买同样款式的衣服穿。。。这就是所谓的兄弟~~~一条心。。。

再加上，人家说我们都是学校的校草~~哈哈~~而每次都迷倒许多的小妹妹~~但是我觉得他们真的是太夸张了~~~

其他三个，我觉得帅。。。但是我并不觉得我是。。。但无可否认。我们都曾经收过学妹们小礼物。。。是塞在我们的抽屉。。。在回到学校才发现~~哈哈~~太恐怖了~~

而他们现在也是在放假，一个已经在英国念书，两个则在吉隆坡私立大学。。。而只有我在国立大学。。。哈哈~~~

自然的。。他们也已经有了女朋友。。。而我。。。当然也有了~~哈哈~~~谈起感情事，我总是很像避开。。。因为频道不同。。。哈哈~~~

回家后，好累。。。但是又想起“他”了。。。对这照片傻笑。。。今天已经是进入第4天了。。。不知不觉。。。睡着了~~~

双性恋~！

2008-06-17T21:59:00.000-07:00

和david在msn不停的聊天。。。一边写新闻一边和david聊天，而他也是一边做工，一边和我聊天，聊着聊着。。。不知为何会谈到了双性恋的课题。。。

双性恋在我的词典之中，根本就没有这样的词汇。。因为我重来就不相信。。。

当david问我为何的时候，我也毫无隐藏的对他说。。。我不能够接受一个人在同一个时间对于男生以及女生都产生爱的感情。。。

当有人告诉我，他是一个双性恋的人的时候，我第一个问题就会问回他们。。那么你喜欢男生多一点还是女生呢？

他们这些所谓的双性恋的答案。。。我喜欢男生多过女生~~~这都是在10个双性恋当中，10个都会给我的答案。。。

听了都想要呕~~不是要鄙视他们。。。或是踩低他们。。。但是。。其实，他们就只是不想承认他们是一个同性恋而已。。。因为他们怕社会会对利用不同的眼光去观看他们。。。。并且更是显出他们其实是正常的。。。。

如果他们想要结婚。。。请便。。我无任的欢迎。。但是结了婚就希望他们修身养性吧。。。不要出来找男子逢场作戏。。。这样的人。。。真是废人一个。。。。

原来david的看法和我是一样的。。。哈哈~~~

david更是问我是不是有过这样的经验，才会有如此的想法，我告诉david不是。。。因为当我知道自己是“与众不同”之后，我就已经有哪个想法了~~~

每当提起这样的话题，我就是会如此的不爽，不知为何。。。就会突然之间严肃起来。。。而david竟然和我说我所写出短讯的手法很恐怖。。。哈哈~~真是不好意思。。。只要是谈到这个问题，就会激怒我心中的那把火~~~

而david 同时问我。。。如果他是双性恋，我会如何对他呢？我更是没有半点犹豫的告诉了david，如果他真的是双性恋，那么就请远离我。。。我们只会是最普通不过朋友。。不可能会有任何进一步了解对方的空间。。。

david对于我的这番话好像被吓倒了。。。哈哈~~不好意思~~但是，最后，他也告诉了我，他是P。。。。在他的电话簿里头，只有男生的电话。。。哈哈~~~

就这样聊着聊着。。。人家放工了。。但是我还不能走。。还要等开会~~~真是的~~

回到家。。好累好累~~

今天，“他”在中国第三天了。。。不知他过得开心吗？期待“他”归来~~

japaneses food~!!

2008-06-16T19:48:00.000-07:00

since i back to my hometown i directly bck to my working place orientaldaily...then when i just step it into the office...my boss has told me that tonight will have an promotion of Japaneses food invited by renaissance hotel....

wow~~~so good~~~i'm just so lucky that just back to office direct can eat so delicious food...u know la...my university is place in the jungle...no another food beside curry food~~~ yukkkkkkkkkk~~ i eating curry untill wanna vomit blood already~~

my boss know me have suffer alot in the jungle university...that why she bring me together go to enjoy the japaneses food ....let me enjoy it~~

after finish the work, we drive to the 5 star hotel renaissance~~~when we step in the restaurant, we saw that the decoration was just very unique....full of colour with the Japaneses style... just so beautiful...

when i saw the food...oh my god~~~i even can't wait untill finish the press conference...i just so hungry and wanted to have my dinner already~~~lol... but i cannot be so " sia sui"...u know la... i need to be a loftiness person...jaga image de ma...lol~~

the Japaneses food that they have served are sushi, sahbu shabu, tapanyaki, n alot of Japanese desert...wakaka~~~ cannot "chap shu"...need eat full full...lol~~~

but when i saw the chef ....is a malay fatty guy...is just so yong sui~~~when he demonstration is just make me feel very funny and look down at he...lol....but wat he reaction is just look like unprofessional......

i just keep on eating n eating....i just like tapanyaki alot...keep on taking the food n just sumbat masuk my mouth...lol.... then suddently...i remembered that haruko has told me in msn, advice me eat untill get very full n get puke~~~ "so sui" haruko....but i cannot do that ...because that will make me so "paiseh" if i do so....lol

in the end...i eating cheese cake, green tea cake and the ice cream make from paper mint become the ending of my Japaneses food....

my colleague say me that i am very can eat....because all of them is stoping eating but except me....haha~~~maybe they jealous of i have a big stomach....can sumbat alot of food...haha...

after that...go window shopping with colleague....because need to digest the food that i have eaten...:p

all Japanese delicious food~~~

意外的惊喜~！！

2008-06-16T07:04:00.000-07:00

今天是“他”在中国的第二天，同时也是我从大学回来之后上班的第一天。。。因为在家里闲着也是没事情做，只好上班充实自己的生活，同时赚取更多的零用钱，作为我今年年尾去香港的旅行费。。。。

在办公室内，吹着冷气，上上网聊天，再写写新闻，一天的工作就这样的结束了。。。而今天和haruko还有david一直在msn里头聊天。。而和平常一样总是会和haruko在msn里头无所不谈。。。从东谈到西，从南说到北。。。总之我们就是话题多多。。。可能我们都是 3 8 一族。。。哈哈~~

而david突然之间“跳”出来，说做工作做到闷了，因此想找人聊天，因此就这样有和david谈了起来，突然之间。。。因为我说有人“瞄准”他。。。而david更是爽口的问我是不是我的前任。。。我当然是西皮笑脸啦。。。说着说着。。。david就告诉我说。。。我的之前的“钢琴”。。。怕我还在为当年的事情生气，因此不敢主动的和我聊天。。。。

其实，我老早就已经没有把这件事情放在心上了。。。也老早的就已经原谅了他。。。但是就只是没有和他聊天而已。。。而david也鼓励我主动向“钢琴”说话，以便化解之前的误会，而我。。当然的。。。也突然在msn和“钢琴"聊了起来。。。好让这件事情能够圆满的画上句点。。。

总算自己料了"钢琴”的心事。。。突然之间好像觉得很伟大。。。哈哈~~（脸皮真的有够厚 =p ）

而今天，我们媒体更是受邀到一间5星级酒店品尝日本料理，因为这是该酒店的促销优惠，当然的记者当然有这份福气享受这些优待。。毕竟他们需要借我们宣传~~

而在准备收工品尝日本料理的时候，突然之间，电话响了起来。。。看看来电显示。。。竟然是“他”~~不肯吧。。。“他”还在中国呀？接了电话。。。“他"真的是从中国拨电给我。。。我顿时间就觉得我的心情真的无法以言语上来形容。。。。真的太意外。。太惊喜了~~

“他”现在是在中国的海南岛。。。其实也是我想去的地方。。。哈哈~~~

在聊了短短的一分钟之后，我就和“他”挂线了，因为国际电话的收费并不便宜，因此我也不想“他”浪费如此大的电话费。。。但是我真的很开心~~

之后，再过不久，“他”又传来了一则短讯表示“他'想念我，想听听我的声音。。。因此就拨了这通电话。。。看了这则短讯。。。我又傻笑了~~~

这对于我来说真的是有惊有喜~~~期待“他”的回来~~~~

回到家里。。。我都还为刚才发生的事情。。一个人的傻笑。。。。

回家的感觉真好~~！

2008-06-15T03:47:00.000-07:00

从5月尾就带着中学的学弟学妹们从老家出发到吉隆坡进行辩论比赛，并且在那里逗留几天之后，又赶往吉大大学上假期课程为期9天，之后又被逼留下在那里进行了3天2夜进行新学期将会进行中秋晚会的会议。。。因此，今日发现自己已经回到了熟悉的安乐窝。。。感觉真好~~~

看到了熟悉的环境，熟悉的脸孔，熟悉的一切。。。感觉就很爽。。。可是却无法看见熟悉的“他”。。。

“他”比我早就已经回来老家了。。。但是昨日“他”与家人飞往中国旅游了。。。所以。。。未能与“他”见面。。。必须等到一个星期后了~~

昨天，晚上接近11时，收到了“他”从中国发出的短讯。。。“他”已经安全的抵达了中国。。。希望“他”在中国能够有个愉快的旅行~~~

无所事事的。。一整天就呆在电脑前面上网。。。听听歌。。。下载连续剧。。。聊聊天。。。就这样度过了一天。。。。

今天的我好懒惰。。。感觉很困。。。可能是这几天。。。都没有足够的睡眠导致。。。再加上都忙着许多事情。。。。可是却无法好好的入眠。。。不知为何。。。

总而言之。。。回到家里感觉真好~~ 就让这几天充电。。。充电~~~

“他“对我好吗？

2008-06-14T03:25:00.000-07:00

和往常一样的。。。我们俩都是透过短讯互罚讯息给予对方。。。而今天，“他”则会和家人一同乘坐飞机到中国游玩。。。因此今天早上10时，“他”就已经在吉隆坡的机场等待下午5时的飞机飞往中国。。。

而就在这一段时间内。。。我们互发的短讯特别频密，要知道，“他”中国游玩一个星期。。。而我这一个星期。。。根本就不会受到任何的短讯是发自于“他”，因此更显得。。。珍惜机会。。。哈哈~~~

传啊传~~“他”就在上机之前打了给我。。。听到他的声音。。。我就十分十分的兴奋~~感觉就是让我会发疯的感觉。。。。

当谈完电话后。。。突然的收到“他”的短讯。。。内容写着“你觉得我对你够好吗？”。。。看了这封的讯息。。。我愣了一下，赶紧的回复“他”的短讯。。。我就写着“其实，你过滤太多了，现在的我很开心。。。因为得到你的爱。。。况且我知道你是一个属于较为“被动”的人。。。不善用言语表达爱意。。。但是我清楚知道。。我爱你~~~”

而这一封短讯就成为了“他”上机之前的短讯。。。。

其实，我知道“他”对我很好。。。但是就是怕我觉得“他”对我不够好。。。。我要的其实只是一个简简单单的爱。。。。我并不奢求太多。。。太多。。。

我将会度过寂寞的一个星期。。。因为少了“他”的声音。。。少了“他”传来关心我的短讯。。。

希望“他”一路平安。。。开开心心的度过中国之旅。。。期待“他”的回来~~~因为好想好想“他”~~

准备收拾了~~要回老家了~~~ 回家的感觉真好~！！！

人的不同性格~~

2008-06-13T00:07:00.000-07:00

今天是我的大学中秋慈善晚会筹委会会议第一天，各小组组长更是必须开会讨论许多的小结和做出决定，因为新学期一开课，我们就会面试招收组员。。。以便能够顺利的完成我们在大学内华人传统的大活动。。。毕竟在今年我们新春晚会更是一罗罗。。。导致无法进行，被逼取消。。。使到了这次的中秋晚会更显得重要。。。

下午2时左右，我们开始了我们的会议，并且从下午就一直开至傍晚7时，之后吃过晚餐之后，又继续的开会讨论事项，但是我觉得我自己所面对的状况更是许多。。。使到我认为。。人的性格不是都能够和你合得来。。。。

我的副手，性格就是与我已经有很大的冲突，并且不能够真正的和我合得来~~ 每当我在解释我的东西时候，我的帮手总是插入一脚，像是东西都是他在做一样。。。但是实际上。。。并不是如此~~

我当时后，好想好想骂粗口。。。。但是我还是没有做出。。。只是觉得很不爽。。。但是这样的事情。。。我只是觉得想要抒发自己的不满而已。。。但是也不想要闹大事情。。。毕竟还是小事一幢。。。因此没有必要做出无畏的东西。。。

这件事情，令我到想到了很多事情，那就是人不可能能够100%的与其他的人一起安安稳稳的相处。。。因此必须互相包容以及谅解。。。

就好比现在的我。。。和我的“他”相处。。。“他”和我都是懂得互相的谅解。。。。因为我知道现在我们俩都是维持远距离的恋爱。。。虽然来自同一个地方，但是我现在在吉打念大学，而“他”现在已经是医生了。。。只是等待分发到不知哪个政府医院服务。。。。。

虽然如此，但是我并没有后悔接受这一段感情。。。因为我觉得我这一段感情将会经得起考验。。。~~~哈哈~~~

好想好想“他”~~~~~

学长知道我的秘密？

2008-06-11T03:50:00.000-07:00

今天，同样的还是老样子。。。感冒也已经渐渐的痊愈。。。。但是还是有点不舒服。。。但是过几天就可以回到我的安乐窝。。。好好的享受。。。那时就能品尝妈妈为我准备的食物。。。想到都已经发疯了~~

上网写部落格已经成为了我一种习惯。。。打开friendster的网站，突然之间。。。我的那个提拔我的学长突然之间游览我的profile(忘了华文是什么）。。。哈哈~！！

前几天，学长才和“他”喝茶，并且还对我的事情感到有兴趣（因为学长不知道是我）。。。。今天就无端端的游览我的网页。。。。。难道。。。

这是一个巧合。。。还是学长已经猜测到是我了呢？

可是，我又觉得不是。。。是不是我想太多了呢？但是这名学长确实很久很久已经没有和他有过密切的沟通了。。。。

无论是个巧合还是猜测，一切都无所谓。。。。如果要发生的。。。始终还是必须面对。。。没有机会逃避。。。。

此外，刚刚贴上的日记。。很快就被HARUKO读了，因为知道我生病了，就发封短讯关心我，，哈哈~~~但是其实还是有一件事情。。。=p 那就是我昨日在部落格上猜测他以前喜欢的对象是“百事”。。。因此同时在该短讯中。。。也顺便澄清我猜测的事情。。。。

不好意思啊。。。haruko做出了猜疑。。。但是有时候。。。他对于我的过去还蛮清楚地。。。所以人家说输人不能输阵。。。哈哈。。。因此要慢慢的找出“痛脚”。。。威胁威胁一下。。。

好衰啊~~~~~=p 开玩笑的。。。别当真。。

下完课，无所事事，而roomate又在睡觉，因此必须等待他醒来之后。。才能够吃晚餐。。。然后上网。。就和DAVID聊了起来。。。。聊着聊着。。。。和他真的还蛮好谈的。。。。下一次在吉隆坡的时候。。一定找他喝茶。。。哈哈~~

好了。。。又是时候吃晚餐了~~~

Breathless

2008-06-11T03:20:00.000-07:00

writing my blog ........in sick jor....face also look old n pucak..lol

Breathless

If our love was a fairy tale

If would charge in and rescue you

On a yacht baby we should sail

To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you

It’d be so beautiful if that come true

You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless

You’re everything good in my life

You leave me breathless

I still can’t believe that you’re mine

You just walked of one of my dreams

So beautiful you’re leaving me

Breathless

And if our love was a story book

We would meet on the very first page

The last chapter would be about

How I’m thankful for the life we’re made

And if me had babies they would have yours eyes

I would fall deeper watching you give life

You don’t even know how very special your are

You’re everything good in my life

You leave me breathless

I still can’t believe you’re mine

You just walked of one of my dreams

So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me

You’re like an angel

The thing that I feel stronger than love believe me

You’re something special

I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’re given me

But all I can do is try

Everyday of my life

You leave me breathless

You’re everything good in my life

You leave me breathless

I still can’t believe you’re mine

You just walked of one of my dreams

So beautiful you’re leaving me

Breathless

Din writes the blog using English for a long time; suddenly feel that want to do it…

This song is sing by Shayn Ward and the title of the song is breathless. Now a day this song become my favorite song….i always just play this song by dun no how many time in a day….my roommate getting crazy by me because I just keep on repeat with the same song…..haha~~~

I just dun no why….the song is touching me…and it was so wonderful for me…:p

Especially the chorus that “ You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe you’re mine You just walked of one of my dreams” it was just so mean to me~~~

Love is a special thing, you cannot force it .When the time is right for sure that your Mr/Mrs right will pop out …..

If u meet up a lover in the wrong timing…even u like that person. in the end both of u may not become together….love is very dramatic…...

Beside love is just like a games, if u dare 2 challenge just try it…..if u win the game…then congratulated you…if u fail…then will getting more hurt~~~ but sometime you still have to take a risk…then you just will have the chance to win the game…haha

Sound like very professional~~~ :p

Actually, I just want to introduce this song for u all….just try it to listen….after hear it…any comment just write in down to me…we can sharing the feeling with each other..kaka~~

错综复杂的心情~！！

2008-06-10T21:16:00.000-07:00

人，总是会有心情起伏不定的时候，有时候会不知不觉中高兴了起来，有时则是沉默寡言，心情糟透了~！！

而，我今天的心情就像是乘坐升降机一样。。。一时上升；一时下降。。。导致思路乱了。。。根本就无法好好的集中做一件事情。。。。就好像成千上万的东西困扰着我。。。但是我始终还是找不到，我心情糟糕的导因。。。

今天就如往常一样。。。必须早醒到校园上课。。。带着那惺忪的眼神，拖步的步伐到课室。。。而教授今天第一件事情宣布的就是针对昨日我们个人即席演讲考试做出评价。。。。她觉得昨日的考试特别的糟糕。。。因为许多的学生都没有好好的表现，一半以上的学生更是测验失败~！！

一些题目，甚至是在课室上曾经讨论的题目，当然的，我没有这么的幸运能够抽到这些题目。。。。但是那些抽到这些题目的学生。都进入了失败区。。。我顿时间好想骂粗口。。。因为他们可说是身福中不只福。。。这样的题目都无法乱说一通。。。

而我的号码在最后的第三个，就只剩下3个题目让我抽。。。就这样抽中了一个很好笑的题目，那就是 “getting married while studying”。。。同样的，可能我的本领就是爱讲话。。。说起话来就是滔滔不绝。。。并且说得头头是道~~~哈哈~！！而在不知不觉中结束了我的演说。。。。就这样的松了一口气。。。

教授今天宣布考试结果。。。结果我成为了班上最高分的那个人在40分满分的同时，我的了38分。。。而其他的学生都是在32分以下。。。。甚至有不少的学生的分数是在10分之下，顿时间，我感到了兴奋。。。。

而在休息时间，吃过午餐，就风雨不改的打开手提电脑上网，而MIKEY更是突然给了我他个人部落格的网址。。。要我感到无聊时，就上他的部落格看看他的日记。。。读着读着。。。真是好有趣。。。。因为我看到了他的日记里面记载了我在吉隆坡的欢乐时光。。。。哈哈~！！

读着日记，就仿佛好像回去了当初的时光，。。。与他们一班SGL见面。。。并且怀念与大家在WINGZ的日子。。。。好想好想~~

读着读着。。。顿然之间，以前的那个他“百事”和我聊了起来。。。谈着谈着。。就问到了感情世界。。。我也毫无隐瞒的告诉了我的那个“他”。。。而“百事”知道之后。。。竟然感到惊讶。。。并且准备告诉我“他”的“丑闻”。。。但是“百事”还是没有说。。。

而对于我来说。。。这一切都已经不重要。。。不是因为我爱着“他”，就是要呵护或是维护“他”。。毕竟过去的事情就让它过去。。。谁又没有过去呢？

可能有些人会说爱情是盲目的。。。当局者迷。。。但是我很肯定的就是我有我自己的立场。。。而我是一个不会为了爱情冲昏头脑的人。。。信不信由你~~ 况且我也无需向任何人交代。。。。

“百事”告诉我。。。怕我受到伤害。。。但是回想当初和“百事”在一起的时候。。没有一个人是赞同我的。。。全部知道的人都惊讶到纷纷问我事实。。。因为他们都无法接受。。。并且和我说了一罗罗的“丑闻”

而我，同样也没有理会别人。。。选择相信。。。而“百事”告诉我那句话时，（怕我受到伤害），何尝他也不是如此。。。令我跌入如此深的无底洞？当时后的心情。。。我又要找谁说呢？

我对于这份感情抛开了很久。。。因此那段感情对现在的我无法造成任何的伤害。。。就当作是朋友的一场关心。。。

而“百事”现在也已经找到了他的另一半。。。“百事”告诉我。。。他的另一半是来自新加坡。。。同样是一段远距离的恋爱。。。我只能衷心的祝福他~~~

因为，我会比“百事”更幸福。。。因为我有“他”。。并不是挑战，或是作为“报复”。。。。只是想告诉自己。。。现在的我。。。很幸福~！！

因为我在获得爱情的同时，我得到了友情。。。MIKEY,LIMPEH和、HARUKO这些人令我感觉得到依靠。。。因为他们都很好。。付出也是很真的感情。。。虽然我人不在吉隆坡，但是我还是感受到他们的真。。。。

其实我更不经的怀疑。。。HARUKO是不是也曾经喜欢上“百事”。。。哈哈~~一切都是我的推测。。。但是没有任何的证据。。。一切还是顺其自然。。。=P

放学之后。。。。我的思路突然之间乱了。。。不只是为何？但是我清楚的知道，我不是为了下午所发生的事情而感到不爽。。。。

渐渐的。。。渐渐的。。。我发现自己生病了~~~头痛。。。准备发烧了，原来早上的时候就已经感冒了。。。。只是自己都没有发觉。。。我的头越来越重。。。

是时候休息了~~~不管怎样。。。明天就是充满美丽色彩的人生~~~~

他确认了我在他心中的地位

2008-06-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

每个感情，对于每个情人来说，都希望能够确认自己在爱人心中的地位。。。往往爱情裂痕的出现。。。就是因为在不知不觉中。。。都无法获得对方的肯定以及确定的一个位置。。。

“他”是一个口是心非的人。。。总是喜欢作弄我。。。我想要的。。“他”偏偏就是会和我做反抗。。。但是。。。我老早就已经知道了。。。所以已经习以为常了。。。而我自己有时也是这样的一个人。。。。哈哈~！！

对于我们是不是情侣。。。虽然我们两人都不曾所出口。。。但是行动上已经证明了我们的关系。。。而别人也认定了我们这段感情。。。

其实，我老早就已经确定了“他”。。而“他”呢？是不是也使合我一样呢？我心中。。。总是有这个疑问。。。因为虽然行动上已经证明，但是我还是渴望“他”的答案。。。

今天，他总是认为我在生他的气。。。因为“他”告诉我。。。某某学长长得很帅（而那个学长，我也认识。。。同样的这位学长还在理大念医科系，但不是SGL）。。。哈哈~~~，而我也承认那个学长确实有样貌~~

但是，对于“他”对我说的这些话。。。我并没有很大的吃醋感。。因为我相信“他”，同时，我也知道“他”的目的。。。就是为了气我。。。。以及为了令我产生吃醋感~！！！

而。。。就在此刻。。。“他”告诉我。。。“他”在乎我的想法。。。因为我是“他”的另一伴。。。如果不是我来控制“他”。。。又有谁来控制“他”呢？

看到这封短讯。。。我像是吃了“春药”一样。。。high 了起来。。。。我的心情根本就是无法用言语形容。。。。因为。。。我得到了。。我想要的答案。。。。

其实，地位。。。排在第几位都无所谓。。。因为我知道。。“他”必定以自己的事业为重。。。。就好比我现在还是以我的学业为重一样。。。只要我们心中又彼此。。互相尊重与信任。。。那就已经很满足。。。满足了~~！！

此外，“他”也和我另一个风纪团长学长一起喝茶。。。（与“他”是朋友。。。也知道“他”的“秘密”）。。。而在喝茶的时候，那个学长看到了由我发出的短讯，但是“他”却没有放我的真名。。。因此那个学长不懂是我。。。

而我和这个学长的交情也慢深。。。因为是这位学长一手的栽培我。。。并且成为风纪团的重要职位。。。那就是秘书。。。在风纪团。。。除了团长，最大的权威就是秘书了。。。因此我不得不感谢他的赏识。。。哈哈~！！

但是，“他”却没有在电话簿上放上我的真名。。。因此学长不知是我。。。哈哈~！！同时，学长也一直追问我是谁~！！！但是，“他”就是懂得“保护”我。。。当然那位学长也不会得到答案。。。哈哈~！！（不好意思咯，我敬爱的学长~！！）

我得到了确认。。。我的心就已经是不只飞到多高了。。。希望这份感情不会再领我从天堂跌入地狱。。。

每段爱情都会面对爱情的考验。。。但是我会勇敢的面对。。。不会再让自己在爱情的道路上。。。跌得遍体鳞伤~！！

好失望的成绩~！！

2008-06-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

这个学期的考试成绩出炉，而迫不及待的透过网络查看我的成绩。。结果成绩令我好失望。。。

本来在作答的时候。。。我是满怀的信心。。。只是剩下一张考卷而已。。我不知道会是怎样的命运。。。但是透过网络调查出来的成绩结果。。。失望~！！

本来，我应该感到高兴。。。因为那科我自认没有信心的科目考获了A。。。但是相反的。。。我觉得在考试当中我答得不错的科目却只拿了令我大跌眼镜的B的成绩。。。。

而我的总成绩。。。也因为这个科目。。。被拉低了~！！

我这个学期失去了大学颁发的Sijil Dekan….我好伤心啊~！！！！

而当获得知道那个“ah beng” 竟然可以得到Sijil Dekan 的时候，我的心更是碎了~！！岂有此理。。。这类的人。。都能够获得。。。

不是我不服输，而我也自认不是一个很喜欢与人家比较成绩的人，因为我觉得很幼稚。。。但是对于“ah Beng”都能够获得。。。我就是不爽。。。要抗议~！！

想到那个“ah Beng ”告诉成绩时候。。。那种恶心的语气以及虚伪的样子。。。就一肚子气。。。。想呕~~~

而我在知道成绩之后。。。就发短讯和我的“他”抱怨。。。宣泄那伤心的心情。。。

而“他”。。。确实安慰了我。。。但是“他”的安慰总是不会直接了当的安慰我，就是那种透过“踩”你几脚，过后才安慰你的方式。。。

而这种方式，总是叫人又爱又恨。。。哭笑不得。。。很想顿时“揣”“他”一脚。。。

但是，“他”就是这样。。。喜欢这样的方式表达对我的关心以及爱护。。。

“他”就是那种。。。你希望他对你说。。。但是他却偏不说的方式。。。

可是。。。这样的“他”。。。并没有减少我对“他”的爱。。。。

心情也在收到“他”的短讯而好些了。。。

成绩出炉，已经是无法改变的事实。。。那只有下个学期。。。再努力。。。打败那个“ah beng”了~！！！

平乏的一天~！！

2008-06-07T22:04:00.000-07:00

今天(7/6所以是昨天)又是休假的日子，并没有任何的课。。。早上起来，就觉得迷失了自己的方向，不知道要做什么才好。。。

望着书桌上的功课，更是顿时间觉得好没有心情。。。但是无论喜欢与否。。。还是必须将它完成，毕竟是考试的分数。。。

虽然是假期。。。朋友约了出去。。但是我就是觉得很懒惰。。。只想一个人静静的做自己想做的事情。。。

虽然我是一个喜欢热闹的人。。。但是有时候，还是想要有属于自己的私人空间，做自己想做的事情，并且不会受到任何的干扰。。。。

就这样。。。吃过午餐之后，就一个人提着手提电脑到校园内上网，并寻找功课的资料，以及明天准备呈现的presentation。。。

就这样。。一坐就坐了整个下午。。。心情也好些了。。。可能就是因为在大学的日子是如此的乏味。。。一沉不变的生活。。。导致心情阴阳失调吧。。。哈哈~！！

回到房间。。。更显得无所事事。。。不只是好。。。不知不觉中。。。就在想念中，进入了睡梦之中。。。。

醒来的时候。。。更是已经天色已暗。。。

就在觉得很盲目的时候。。。收到了“他”的短讯。。。在那时。。。一切一切的不知任何参杂的心情。。。就这样已经被抛到九霄云外了。。。

原来，他对我的魔力是如此的大。。。“他”对于我做的一切。。。都会影响我的心情。。。。这又是不是所谓的爱情魔力？

和以往的心情一样。。。当无所事事的时候。。。思念的心就特别容易的被勾起~~

虽然睡了一阵子。。。但是我现在还是抵挡不住睡神的召唤。。。眼睛开始困了。。。

明天又是上课的一天。。。好闷好闷~~~

一个人独守空房~！！

2008-06-06T23:09:00.000-07:00

室友今天和其它的朋友出去了。。。只剩下我一个人留在房子面对着四面的墙壁，但是还好。。。有一台的手提电脑陪伴我度过这个孤独的时间。。。

一个人在房间努力的完成功课。。。而功课就像永远做不完似的。。。也只好拼命的作。。。

当面对着那冷冷清清的房子的时候，而只剩下音乐陪在我左右。。。自然的。。。就会想起“他”。。。总是会想“多希望他就在我身旁”。。。

一个人安静的时候，思路就会特别的多。。。总是在想“他”现在在做什么呢？吃饱了没有？等等无聊的问题。。。但是就是会压抑自己。。。不然我那一罗罗的功课又无法完成了。。。。

现在已经是凌晨12时40分了。。。。我的室友还没有回来。。。。而我。。则是不断地在想念。。。

虽然我好困，但是就是睡不着。。。为何呢？

我脑海想着。。我的那个“他”。。同时间，一般和我度过吉隆坡的“知己”同时也浮现在脑海中。。。mikey, limpeh, haruko。。。一班令我快乐的“知己”。。而我现在的心情。。。却是已经和那个画面成了强烈的对比。。。。他们，像是已经走进了我的生活里。。。我真的好爱这个“家庭”。。。不知为何。。。

头还是一样的重。。。眼睛开始眯了。。但是睡意却不强烈。。。脑海盘旋的就是无限的思念。。。。

一个人的时候，就是会如此。。。

好了。。。夜深了，想好好的怀念。。。只是一个人静静的想念。。。

男儿泪~！！

2008-06-06T02:04:00.000-07:00

今天，早上起来。。。感觉好疲倦。。。很困。。。头开始昏了。。。

难得休息的一天。。但是却开始感冒了。。。今天接近12点才起来。。。整个身体就是有心无力。。。想温习功课都没有心情。。。做什么事情就是觉得好累好累。。。。

但是。。。这一切都加深了我对"他”的思念。。。

昨晚。。。我竟然不知不觉地流下男儿泪~！！！真的是在我毫无防备之下，那一滴眼泪就从我的眼眶流下了。。。

审问自己。。。为何会流下眼泪。。。翻来覆去。。。最终。。还是承认了。。。好想“他”~！！

收到“他”的短讯。。。我可以特别兴奋。。。接到“他”的电话，我更是会感到特别的温馨。。。“他”对我。。。真的不会再向以前一样了。。。。我感受到了~~~

还好。。。流下眼泪的时候，室友并没有在，因此没有看到那个场面。。。哈哈~！！不然室有对于我的举动肯定会感到惊讶~！！

那时候，可害羞死了~！！

当我选择这样的爱情。。。我就应该知道会面对如此的情况。。。这世界上根本就不能够有两全其美的东西。。。因此我必须懂得适应。。。

我相信我能够做到这一点。。。因为“他”在我的生命中，已经开始占据了很大很大的空间~！！

思念。。。绝对会让我更加懂得珍惜这一份感情的存在。。。我将会用这一切证明。。。以便维护我这段得来不易的感情~~

男儿泪~~已经化为我壮大的力量。。。勇敢以及积极的面对感情的一些事务。。。。

只因。。。我在乎他~！！

好想一个拥抱~！！

2008-06-04T22:16:00.000-07:00

在大学过着从早上8点30分上课到下午5时30分的劳累生活，我真的真的很累。。。

但是，我知道，身为学生的我。。。生活就是这个样子。。。并没有什么好抱怨的。。。因为我知道以后还有许多的事情更艰难，更辛苦。。。因此当作是一种学习的过程。。。

最近，虽然时间表都排得满满。。。但是不管我做任何的事情。。。脑海都会想着“他”。。。无时无刻都在想着“他”的“sui样”。。“他”对我的“冷言冷语”。。。。一切一切。。。

不管早上醒来，放学回去宿舍。。。到了临睡前。。。都是想着“他”。。。

这几天。。我真的真的好累。。。想到早上起来要去上那无聊的课程的时候。。。我就已经是无精打采了。。。。每天都是半醒半托的情况之下去上课。。。

因为。。。真的太无聊了。。。开始想家了。。。

此外，因为我在新学期参与“大学的中秋节大型活动”。。。并且成为礼仪组的组长。。。很多东西必须要我处理。。。而筹委会主席却像个粪桶。。。到了最后一分钟。。。才投诉这个不对。。。那个不好。。。然后说这个还被处理。。那个没有昨晚。。。听到都想杀人~！！

妈的（不好意思，太粗了）。。。但是无法压抑自己的情感。。。。算了吧。。。还是等下之后必须好好的处理。。。。

我。。。。好累好累。。。。

我真的想现在就能够得到“他”给我一个热情的拥抱。。。

好想好想。。。

想念~！！

2008-06-03T22:13:00.000-07:00

从吉隆坡回到大学已经进入第第三天了。。。同时也与“他”3天没见面了。。。但是这样的情况将会持续下去。。。毕竟他有他的空间，而我却有我的生活。。。但是。。。我深知一样的东西，就是好想。。好爱“他”~！！

虽然人家说才才刚开始拍拖，何必说出这些话呢。。。但是，心里就是不听使唤的在想着他的样子。。临睡之前。。。都是一直反复的想着与他一起度过的时光~~

说真的，我对于这份感情真的真的很用心。。。因为这份感情真的得来不易。。。。我已经没有再大的勇气面对爱情的失败了。。。。很多人和我说过，“你现在有的是时间，样子也帅（但我却不觉得。。。哈哈。。假假。。其实在安爽~！），将会有很多爱情的机会，而且也有很多的选择权利，何必担心”。。。

听了很多人这样的说法，但我却不认同。。。反而感觉很担心。。。因为爱情对我来说是脆弱的。。。虽然。。。我不会刻意追求爱情。。而我没有感情的世界同样的能够活得精彩。。。。但是如果一旦锁定目标，确定爱情的降临。。。我会十分十分的珍惜~~因为我认为感情不是儿戏。。。

因为，爱情游戏。。。我玩不起~！！！

“他”。。。令我坠入爱情的无底洞。。。但是我不后悔。。。因为“他”。。。我确定了我爱情的方向~！！

有“他”在我的身边，我感到了那份安全感。。。“他”让我看到那份关心、照顾、关怀等等的一面。。。。虽然。。。他时常都喜欢口是心非。。。不喜欢使用言语来表达。。。但是“他”所作出的一切一切。。。我感受到了“他”对我的那份。。。爱~！！

在想念与思念“他”之余。。。我真的还是陶醉在五人乘坐MIKEY车一起兜风喝茶的那段日子。。。。

说老实话，我有遗憾。。。在这一次的吉隆坡之旅我留下了一个小小的遗憾。。。。

那就是。。。没有和你们。。。。拍照~！！！

其实。。。我真的很想和你们一起合照。。。。但是我就是不知道如何开口。。。哈哈~！！！

无所谓，还是到吉隆坡有很多的机会。。。。因此终有何你们一起合照的机会~！！！哈哈~！！

虽然我不帅。。。。。但是还是喜欢拍照。。。哈哈

“他”和我

2008-06-03T22:10:00.001-07:00

“他”和我

“他”在我准备就读中六的时候，就认识了“他”。。。同样的我们是在IRC的聊天网站认识。。。但是要说懂得这个人的存在，应该可说是中学的时候吧，我就已经懂得有这个人的存在，但是当时的他就是还不是很起眼~！！（哈哈！！）

当时后，也不知道他是SGL，直到在聊天网站中，遇见对方。。。就这样我们真正认识的故事也正式的开始。。。我们认识与接触的旅程可说是相当的戏剧化。。。。

当时后，“他”已经在砂捞越大学就读医科系了，因此必须等到大假期的时候，他才会回到老家，而我们才有机会见面。。而当时的“他”也已经向我索取电话号码。。。但是。。。“他”却忘记储存我的电话号码。。。因此在那一年的农历新年，我们错过了见面的机会。。。同时，我那时候也在国民服役计划。。。更是没有时间上网。。。因此就这样。。。我们也只好哀叹没缘份~！！

就在国民服役计划回来之后，我开始在IRC混日子的时候，又再一次的遇上他了。。。这一次确定的我们都获得了彼此的电话号码。。。而在9月还是10月的回教徒开斋节的假期时。。。我们有了第一次的见面。。。当时后就是约了彼此到一间MAMAK档口喝茶聊天~~~从晚上10点多。。。我们竟然料到了凌晨2点多。。。之后才回家。。。

而我。。就在那个时候。。对“他”开始有了感觉。。。甚至有一次我向“他”暗示。。。但是他就是装傻扮不知。。。。而我第一次向人“告白”也失败了。。。哈哈~！！

但是，“他”却对于我又一次一次的让我感觉到希望。。。但是都是一次又一次的落空。。。对于当时的“他”。。。有种又爱又恨的感觉。。。哈哈~！！有时，真的很想扁他~！！但是我始终都无法让“他”离去。。。每一次我想忘记。。就是无法控制自己。。。

而。。我们就只是保持联络，但是并不经常。。只是偶尔尔已。。就在今年3月多吧。。。“他”对于我又是“热”了。。但是我并没有抱着太大的希望。。。就可能他想找人解闷。。。因此才会对我如此。。。。但是渐渐的。。我又开始试探。。。而他却没有拒绝也没有接受。。。而“他”表示需要时间，毕竟“他”已经过着很久的单身生活。。。再加上，“他”刚毕业，所以想要把重心放入事业上，而我当然能够了解这一点，因此我总是给他很大的空间。。没有给他任何的压力。。。因为我也希望这会是一段顺其自然的爱情。。。。

渐渐的。。。我们的感情越来越加深，而我对于他的感觉更是一天比一天的浓烈。。。而本来确实我们打算在我从大学回去之后，才慢慢的建立我们的感情。。。但是却是在巧合的安排之下，我有机会在吉隆坡与他见面。。。并且开始“约会”。。。

在过去的短短两天和“他”相处。。。我们的举止言谈。。。都像是一对情侣了。。。虽然我们都没从对方的口中获得最明确的答案。。。但是举止已经证明了一切。。。我们的一举一动都胜过与任何的花言巧语。。。

我恋爱了~~我希望这段爱情能够得到大家的祝福。。。因为。。。

我爱“他”~！！

兜兜转转已经几年了。。。“他”终于接受了我。。。。而我终于让“他”动心了~！！

备注：写出这篇文章并不是想要炫耀，但是希望能够写出自己的最真的心情~！！

怀念在WINGZ的那个夜晚

2008-06-03T22:09:00.001-07:00

怀念在WINGZ的那个夜晚

WINGZ在我到吉隆坡已经深刻地留下了不可磨灭的痕迹。。。因为它带给我快乐，带给我欢笑，带给我幸福。。。

我是一个喜欢热闹的人，但是偶尔也是需要为自己留下空间。。本来当天和“他”吃午餐后，就打算回家休息。。。但是那一般就约了出来。。。一整个下午就与他们一起喝茶。。。再加上一连几天与他们喝茶聊天到很夜。。。因此希望能够回家休息。。并且与“他”共度世界~！！哈哈~！！但是“老豆”就是不肯放人~！哈哈（好坏的孩子~竟然说老豆的坏话）

当来到WINGZ一起喝茶。。。一起玩牌。。。一起聊天。。。一起唱歌的时候。。。我真的真的好高兴。。。不知为什么。。。直到现在。。那个快乐的场面还是依然在脑海中。。。。

我好累。。但是就是还是很享受当晚的气氛。。。再加上有助唱歌手在台上唱出令人感动的歌曲。。。就觉得。。好爽好爽~！！

当时就好像相隔了好久好久的朋友终于重逢的感觉（对不起，想象力太丰富的人就是这个样子~！！哈哈）

虽然当晚没有特别的节目，没有特别的游戏，纯粹就只是喝茶聊天，但是我。。。却了在其中。。。而再加上有“他”在我身旁。。。我就满足了~~

其实能够和他们结为如此要好的朋友，我感到欣慰。。。因为他们确实是个能够交心的朋友。。。。

在WINGZ，同样的DJCARMEN,TIMI,DJ的尼日利亚男友，SEBASTIAN和一个忘了名字的人（哈哈~~！！）虽然没有两句。。。但是还是很高兴看到大家~！！哈哈。。。（感觉好老土~！）

所以，希望下回我在回来此地的时候，同样会获得你们的爱戴~！！！因为你们MIKEY,LINPEH老豆，HARUKO,“他”已经在我的生命中，增添了好多好多的色彩~！！

有你们陪伴真好~！！

2008-06-03T22:06:00.000-07:00

有你们陪伴真好~！！

在吉隆坡短短的几天，过着节目排得满满的节目。。。。虽然感觉好累，但是却是有一班的“好友”陪伴。。。。让我不知不觉中陶醉于你们在一起疯狂的日子。。。

记得和你们第一次见面的时候是在mid valley，我真的真的好期待与你们见面，因为毕竟大家都已经在irc聊了好些日子。。。。终于能够见到大家的庐山真面目。。。太好了~！！哈哈。。

撇开“他”不谈，我在吉隆坡短短几天，我第一个见到的是米奇（MIKEY）。。。他果然和在网中人家说的一样“排骨”，但是还蛮高的。。。哈哈~！！我在那里的日子里，他对我的关照有佳。。更是没有任何的怨言载我进进出出。。。有时候，真的感觉到不好意思。。。当中，就是我从kajang准备去“他”家的时候，他更是愿意的在lrt那儿接我去“他”家。。。就只是这样，然后他就回家了。。。。当时后的我，心中存了好多好多的感激。。“米奇”就是这样的一个好人。。并且也非常的健谈。。“HAM CHUN”啊~~~谢谢以及不好意思我~！！成了我在吉隆坡的专用司机。。。哈哈~！！

之后，更是认识了“他”的“老大”（Linpeh）。。。第一眼见到他的时候，就有一种亲切的感觉。。。不知道为什么会有如此的感觉。。。哈哈~！！说老实话，我真的不喜欢抽烟的家伙，但是对于“老大”，我真的不觉得有讨厌感。。。可能他的样子也是蛮可爱亲切的~！哈哈~！！在说，尤其是他交谈的时候，感觉这个人就是还蛮风趣以及有思路的人。。。但是我还是对于抽烟家伙有偏见。。。但Linpeh真的绝对是个例外~！！（心里话~！！LOL）。。而又一次在我们喝茶的时候，顺便到车店看新车。。。哪知，售车员竟然把“老大”当成是我的爸爸。。顿时在场的我们真的是笑翻了肚子。。。而就这样。。。“老大”变成了“老豆”~！！哈哈~！！知道“老豆”正在追求一个“阿joe”的家伙（好坏~竟然称呼人家是家伙~！！）。。。。希望“老豆”能够成功啦。。。。身为孩子的。。。一定会给你最大的鼓励。。。哈哈~！！对了~！“老豆”。。。你还没给家用~！！:p

这个人不知该从何说起~哈哈~！！可以说是缘分吧~！因为我好长好长的时间没有在irc里面混了。。。而当我进入irc的时候。。顿时间，就成为众人的焦点。。应该是我的nick name（ah^fack）吧。。。再加上3 8 的martin不停的“推销”。。哈哈。。。就这样认识了一个“春子”（haruko）。。哈哈~！！这个人顿时间就成为了和我无所不谈的“知己”。。。我知道也清楚他对我的心意。。。但是我心里早就已经被“他”霸占了。。。所以“春子”这份心。。。我不知如何面对。。。但他同时也成为了。。。我的“聆听者”。。。当我第一次遇见他的时候，我就觉得他就是一个大小孩~~可能是因为身高的关系吧（不是要贬低你~！！哈哈）就很会蹦蹦跳跳。。。但是。。我就是很少和他有交谈的机会。。因为知道他不知如何面对我和“他”。。。只要向HARUKO说声：我真的在乎他这个朋友，也不想失去~~对于HARUKO，我衷心的感激。。。。对了。。他是个蛮爱唱歌的人，就在WINGZ的那个时候，就看到他那陶醉的样子。。。很可爱。。。哈哈~!! 对了，希望下一次我在吉隆坡的时候，能够很好的和你交谈。。。哈哈~！！不然我又要IGNORE 和ABAIKAN你了~！！哈哈~！！

就是这些人，在我在吉隆坡的日子的时候，就给我带来了不少的快乐与欢笑。。。当回到大学的时候，除了思念着“他”。。。这些陪伴我的人的脑海还是浮现在我的脑海中。。。

同时，我想说。。。我还幸福~~ 因为有你们的陪伴~！！

爱情。从新出发

2008-06-02T22:20:00.000-07:00

好久已经没有进来这里把自己的心事写在部落格了~！自从与“他"的感情结束,再加上没有空于地时间,因此也渐渐的忘了自己有这个部落格的存在....

今天,突然想起....并且希望将自己不能够太过"公开"的感情以及事情表达出来....让与我在同一个世界的朋友们分享我的故事....

如果想读取我之前的故事...恐怕你可是你可失望了...因为我把他删除了...因为不想过去悲哀的故事留在这个部落格内~!!! 哈哈~!! 但是如果想知道当时后的心情...可以直接问我...或许我还是会和你分享...哈哈~!!!

贫乏的感情世界已经在我的生命中围绕了好久....我并不知道爱情何时才能够降临...我一直都在期待...我期盼好旧的恋爱始终没有发生...但是我没有放弃过...最后我真的得到了爱情之神的眷顾...

我爱的"他"....走入了我的生命里~!!!

从我渴望爱情开始...目标就是"他"...但是却无法获得爱情之神的眷顾...因此落空,但是我始终都没有放弃追寻自己想要的梦想....我相信自己能够寻找到我要的爱情....

期待...等待....我找到了~!!!

爱情....从新出发~~~

希望自己这段感情将会成为我唯一的爱情~~~~

因为...我真的爱"他"~!!!

想太多

2007-11-25T23:47:00.000-08:00

想太多~！！

你笑着说他是朋友

但你眼中太温柔我的不安

那么沉重只有你不懂他霸占了你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落

所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么虽然你不说或许错在我太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

这首歌成为了我最近的首选歌曲。。。这就是李玖哲的歌《想太多》。。。每天我都会反复的聆听这一
首歌。。朋友对于这首歌都已经开始觉得厌烦了~！！

这首歌。。我最爱的地方就是他的副歌~~~ “是我想太多，你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我是我想太多我也这样说这是唯一能安慰我的理由” 很多事情的发生真的就如我们真的想太多了吗？但是往往我们的想太多却成为了不能够争辩的事实。。。

每次把事情告诉你想告诉的人的时候。。。对方总会以一句你想太多了。。。轻而易举的将事情的真相瞒了过来。。并且敷衍了事~！！

虽然如此。。。某些人会认为这样就能够把整件事情的真相给满天过海了。。。但是他们却忘了许多人的第六感是准确地。。。尤其是女人的第六感。。。到底你有没有付出真心对他。。。对方就能够察觉了。。

做人吗。。。如果真心。。又何必绕一个大圈来掩盖自己的所作出丑陋的事情呢。。。当你觉得安全的时候。。。往往就是人家拆穿你的假面具的时候了~~~

虽然如此。。。往往我们都会觉得是自己想太多或是真的希望是自己想太多了。。只因为我们真心的付出感情。。。但是有时。。。事实并不像我们想象中那么的完美以及单纯。。。。

但是我们只能自欺欺人的告诉自己真的是我们想太多了。。。因为。。。这是唯一能够安慰自己的理由~~~

感情世界里，让许多人迷失了方向。。。在理智的人一旦踏入爱情。。。就无法变得理性。。因为爱情就是一个魔法。。。没有一个人能够逃出它的魔掌~！！

当“两人世界”变成“两人三足”的时候。。。就是感情最大的考验。。。因为分分钟。。你就会失去感情。。。最后却成了自己一个人背包旅行~！！

我的10个做人名言~~！！

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每个人的个性都不一样，想要追求的梦想也不相同。。。但是只要坚持自己的立场，做回原本的自己就已经足够了~！！

做人难，难做人这一句名言形容得非常恰当。。。因此我都有自己处事的风格。。。而以下则是我的做人道理名言。。与大家分享。。。。

1）遇到你真的爱的人时，要努力争取和他相处下去，因为当他离去的时候，一切都来不及挽救了。

2）遇到可以相信的朋友时，要好好地珍惜和他相处，因为在人的一生中，可遇到知己真的不是一件容易的事情。

3）遇到人生中的贵人时，要记得好好感激，因为他是你人生的转折点。

4）遇到曾经爱过的人，记得微笑向他感谢，因为他是让你更懂爱的人。

5）遇到曾经恨过的人时，要微笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加的坚强。

6）遇到曾经背叛你的人时，跟他好好的聊一聊，因为若不是他，今天你也不会懂得这个世界。

7）遇到曾经偷偷喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福哟~！因为你喜欢他的时候，不是也希望他幸福快乐吗？

8）遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他支持过你的人生，因为他是你精彩回忆的一部分。

9）遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可能只有这一次的解释机会，能够让你解释清楚，解除误会。

10）遇到现在和相伴一生的人时，要百分百的感谢他爱你，因为你们现在都得到幸福和真爱。

这也只是我个人的做人名言。。。并且并不代表大家的意见，只是希望与大家一起分享。。。=）

玟言發語

valentine day

my dream all in vain

Nothing is FOC~!!

what can i do?

new year; new wish, new hope

3 week life in KL

不可不看的人生10个经典领悟

Melancholy

the promise

记得我爱你~~

Thank for everything~!!

am i EQ not high enough?

Value VS Ranking.....Love~~

holiday..waterfall... relaxing~~~

a bored holiday

i'm sick~~

the feeling of this few week

Mr.Beng

choices n decision

so fake!

boycott? so serious man~~

i going become zombie~~

my sister convo in kl

feel alone

Lost in the “jungle”~~

busy, tired , stress

New sem start~~(7/7)

I think I am too sensitive

Unbelievable Experience~~!! (30/6)

wonderful day 4 me~~

am i very cool?

welcome bck dear~~

露营的点点滴滴~~

法官和警察的效率。。。真的“太好了“~！！

双性恋~！

japaneses food~!!

意外的惊喜~！！

回家的感觉真好~~！

“他“对我好吗？

人的不同性格~~

学长知道我的秘密？

Breathless

错综复杂的心情~！！

他确认了我在他心中的地位

好失望的成绩~！！

平乏的一天~！！

一个人独守空房~！！

男儿泪~！！

好想一个拥抱~！！

想念~！！

“他”和我

怀念在WINGZ的那个夜晚

有你们陪伴真好~！！

爱情。 从新出发

想太多

我的10个做人名言~~！！

爱情。从新出发