a bored holiday

always waiting for the holiday because it was just exciting and can relax myself....but not for this time....

getting back from uni...really want to relax myself and enjoy my holiday after get busy and tired with my moonfest project and assignment.....but i get sick~~wat the fxxK~~

but this also ok...after this few day stay at home...really nothing to do....just watch drama and on9 only...nothing already.....maybe i'.m in sick...so din join friend for yam cha....and maybe it make untill my holiday so bored.........

after thinking, i think i still cannot relax and enjoy my holiday....i dunno why have this stupid feeling...it still like a lot of tention on me~~~i very worry of this and that...but in the end..i also dunno i worry about wat.....

i just feel that i lost my self.......

this few day i think i am bad temperament........i really get med easyly.....i am so so sorry~~~

i really dunno wat i am doing in my holiday~~ do every thing also no mood....want study but start reading...direct sleepy~~~ want go out...but feel lazy....

hate the holiday like this~~~ hope the following day of my holiday will get special and really get my self relax...b4 my study continue and wil facing my final exam soon~~

i'm sick~~

i thought that after finish busy for one whole week with my moonfest project...i can go back to my hometown relax my self.....but the worse thing that i back to home...i get sick~~~~

after back to hometown...still feeling ok....and go to eat thai food with friend....manatau...second day wake up...get sick jor......sick like hell......wanna vomit de~~

really need some one beside on me n take care of me...just feel lonely.....i hope some one is beside me...n give me 2 hug~~~

2day when to see dr already.....and feeling better...but still in blur blur situation...haha~~ walking also like i am in flying~~kaka

eating the medicion.... just not a good feeling.....want to go out lepak also din have the mood~~~ this sick spoil my holiday mood~~~suckkkkkkkkk~~

sitting at home and watch hong kong drama....nothing can do alraedy....sien~~

really feel lonely.......

the feeling of this few week

Long time din write down my feeling on the blog....some one just keep asking me that when going to update the blog again.... and i just told him that dunno why i loose the feeling of going to write down what i feel...even i have the feeling to update the blog...but my brain is just like empty...dunno what should i post up on the blog......

i think i started busy at 14th of september untill 22nd. i keep busy with my mooncakes festival project that i have join....every day every night keep on meeting...n meeting .....untill 3-4am early in the morning......

then bck 2 my room already 5 something , continue sleeping untill 9 or 10 something have 2 wake up n prepare myself to class....and all this rotaine continue almost one week already.....

at the week that i get busy...i starting to get moody, unhappy....i know i have to done all job.... but wat the stupid pengarah and pemantau.....just last minit and tell u this u need to do...that u need to repair....wat the fuckkkkkkkkkk~~

they just know how to order our ketua to work....but they even din think about how many time we have and how many thing we still need to settle......wat kind of the leader they are....

this is the 1st time that i join the project and make me feel unhappy.....b4 that even i join a project ...even i am so busy and tired...but i can feel the happyness... but i am honest to tell not this time~~~ because my biro pemantau is suckkkkkkkkk~~~ never try 2 solve problem just know how to create problem...in the end need me to help her to cover his back site.....

and the worse thing is...i still need to smile infrant of her...even i really wanna slap her~~ if she really not a girl...i slap die her already....lol

some more i still need to settle my assignment.....my group have done wrong...and luckyly the lectural give us a chance to re-do again....but the time that we have is just one n the half day....30 pages of the assignment.....wat the helll.,... but wat can we do....we just need to finish it...bcs all of tis is exam mark...........

i am so so so....sorry to one person that need to hear me mumbling and make him feel sad to me........bcs i really really unhappy in that time..........just i dun want to say i out........ but anyways thank to him always cool me down....thank alot....special men~~

now is my holiday.......i bck to hometown again.....and it time to relax my self.....do the thing that i like to do.....eat the food that i like to eat...........dun 1 to thing so much........ just be the real of my self..........

i just keep missing...missing...n missing~~~~muackssssssssssss